3 days..

2 days since i had not blogged.. not that i have nothing to blog about.. just that i lazy to blog lol..

econs was not as hard as i thought it would be.. so its cool.. haha.. i think i can get an A?

all about status nowadays.. I'm not materialistic la.. but to achieve a standing in my world, i need to have high expectations in me.. no expectations would lead to decreased work productivity.. and make me look like a prick.. yea.. i'm a normal, typical guy, so i just want to shine a little..
pardon me, will ya?

seeing you smile reminds me of a song.. secret smile.. yea everybody would have that power to do it, if they were smiling from the bottom of their hearts...

1 days

in morning got a guy wan to borow money from me.. he claimed that he was our neighbours.. reason? his daughter is sick, and his wife is out working.. he have no money on hand and his next door neighbours are out.. so he need money to take his daughter to see a doctor.. well, i almost lent him $50.. yea.. but my mum saw it, and she said that she nvr seen him before.. so by tt time i already gone back to my own business le..

my mum later also told me that some ppl in our blog were scammed some times back, when an indian lady turned up at some ppl's doorstep and asked for money for her daughter to see the doctor.. well, she chided me for being so ready to lend some strangers money..

yea.. i know i have a soft spot for tt.. if he really have a daughter who is sick, and something happened to her, then i'd feel guilty.. i dunno why.. but yea i have a soft heart, can't bear to reject people.. hope i dun fall for some door-to-door salesmen/women and buy their products.. i know some in my class who i'd buy products from sia, if they became salesmen/women..

today

pretty average.. i had my scheduled totally sorted out.. so tts cool.. morning study, then play, afternoon do past yr paper 06/07, play, night revise, play.. but night comes and i played b4 studying, so now recapping lol..

so i was reading through dark mirage's blog, when i saw this.. ^^ and he's some one i dun know.. =D

there was this post about the interview with a cosplayer, Arisa Mizuhara.. ehh well, shes kinda cute.. hahas.. and tts cool.. so one gd reason to take up japanese is that you'll need it when u talk to cosplayers in japan! especially cute ones! =D dun worry.. its not a change of heart..

was ruffling through youtube and some old soundtracks.. saw Give it all by rise against.. the lyrics were meaningful.. so thats darn cool... considering its punk.. yea..

mv here..



theres a hidden meaning in this.. i think its basically sticking up for what you think or feel.. by doing the right things of course.. and the rhythm was pushing it towards higher grounds.. so tts cool.. haha..

still, i still think Rascal Flatts one of the best english country band there is.. I love listening to their songs.. 1. clear lyrics, not some mindless shit.. 2. meaningful songs.. love it..

hope the day comes when.. hehe.. i have have some stupid dreams, can't I, maybe it'll come true??



hope so.. *crosses finger

movies again!!

so just watched finish epic movie.. okok la.. haha.. stupid and lame but still can make u laugh and feel stupid about yourself.. 2/5?

then listened to rascal flatts again.. nice sia.. wakakaka.. found some mvs on youtube.. so posting here.. their songs have meanings one.. ya..

Idiocracy the movie..

well, today woke up at 11am.. cos slept at 1am.. feels good though... havent slept for 10hours at a stretch now.. haha.. then woke up and continued studying from where i left of yesterday.. topic 6.. read till topic 12, and am going to revise the rest of it later at night.. wooo.. so busy nowadays..

then just finished watching Idiocracy.. this show is lame haha.. but still quite nice.. 3/5? yea..

the story is basically about a man and a women in an army project hibernating in some sort of coffin.. then woke up 500 years later due to an error.. they then discovered that the world, instead of becoming more advanced, became more and more stupid.. yea.. after that the man went and fixed some problems, and so on.. haha..

you gotta watch it to believe it lol..

one advertisement of the Brawndo drink..



2 more exams.. yeah all of us can make it.. just gotta keep believing that we can do it.. work hard you!

thanks in advance..

well.. u know ytd get the O levels results.. seems my 2 pretty cousins (well, they are, by my standards) didnt do too well there.. still ok la.. this year O level so hard?? lucky i took o level the year b4.. haha..

hmm.. dunno wad to say, but i still wan to blog.. OH.. my cousin's son dun like me sia.. i wan play with him he shy away.. zzz.. am i that scary? lol.. turns out he had too much fun then got a nightmare in his house.. then my cousin went rang up my aunt and scolded her from bringing his son to our place.. =.=

still got this type of ppl.. haiz.. protective of kid??? maybe ba..

hmm.. quite sad things happened today.. lucky i'm not the one whos sad.. and I'm not telling =X

sian.. my tagboard is dying le.. someone help me revive can?? thanks in advance..

I Feel Good!

oh gosh.. I feel positive right now.. so why not share the joy with you guys?? i kinda figured, if i can put my negative feelings down in this blog, why not the positive ones too?? =D

stats was a breeze, not considering that i had some difficulty with a question, but still did it in the end =D

ok.. so right now i feel gd.. haha.. this came from i dunno where, but I feel good alright! ^^

feeling my wishes will come true ^^

so here goes my wish list

1. Hope everything will go all the best with her ^^
2. Get Honour Roll!! If cannot get but still 3.5GPA, at least i know i can get it =P
3. New accessories! (Hint: Belt)
4. well, improved relationships with my friends and family ^^
5. Class Gathering!
6. Her..?
7. well, I'm a simple guy so not much wishes le..

anyways, figured my three wishes will go "pop" with wish number one, so there!

revision yet again..

well today morning began with me playing games.. haha.. wad a day to start! haha.. after that in afternoon then began serious studying.. lucky got past years paper.. i understood more things le.. the papers were darn helpful yea.. now playing games again.. haha..

ok.. i found out rascal flatts lyrics were meaningful in every song.. so thats why i like it.. =D

such as.. My Wish..


I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small, You
never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

This is my wish
i hope you know somebody who loves you
may all you dreams stay big

lyrics so long.. but the whole song took 3mins ++ nia.. the song is nice la.. but DPDP so i am open to any comments about the band.. haha.. so there.. ciao!

well.. best wishes!

finally.. salvation! onward!!

meet peeps for lunch and final revision today... not bad huh? at least we got our facts right.. haha..

ok.. so i finally managed to finish FOM exam.. was not as hard as i imagined.. so tts good.. haha.. now friday got stats paper.. sad sia.. haven study yet.. ok la.. got study a little.. but a lil' nia.. tml must put more effort into it..

screwed up a little for FOM today.. but i can live with it.. so there.. haha.. maybe can get an A la.. or a B+.. haha..

hmm.. hope i didn't screw up.. haha.. not in exam la.. or else i wouldn't be blogging here le.. ok.. seeing you was refreshing!! haha..

The final push..

Ohayo gozaimasu!

so today's the day.. FOM.. seat number 31 (remind myself).. hope my marks is not 31 haha.. aiming for A today.. B+ doesn't motivate me much haha.. A A A!

FOM's easy la.. can score well one.. yea.. wish me luck people..

quotable quotes..

well.. all the quotes used in my pm in messenger were taken from kamen rider kabuto quotes pages.. lol!

well you can see it HERE.. some of the more memorable ones:

• People become stronger through adventures.
• When people love others, they grow weaker, though it's nothing to be ashamed of. True weakness lies elsewhere.
• When not close by, one is even closer.
• It is enjoyable to eat something delicious, but the greatest joy comes from the time spent waiting for it.
• If you wish it to be so, luck will always be on your side.
• Flowers can make any girl glow.
• All girls are equally beautiful.
• Even the devil's whispers can sometimes sound like an angel's voice.
• One that drowns in oneself will eventually fall to darkness.
• Even in a world full only with enemies, there will always be someone you must protect.
• If you receive a little kindness, give them a large serving.
• The sun is wonderful, it can make even the dirt shine.
• Life is a long path to a goal. Drop your heavy luggage and enjoy walking with your hands empty.
• A bond is a deep connection that can never be broken. Even if apart, heart and heart are still connected.
• There is no wealth greater than friendship, so let's make it our treasure.

all these are cool.. and got special meaning one i think.. very insightful.. haha..

well.. listened to these songs while revising.. not rock or wad.. but nice nevertheless.. so here u go..

my wish



take me there

today

whew~ finally today got study dao.. haha.. morning study, afternoon study then sleep, then study again.. then night is play time!! wooo... i guess i'm about half done le.. tml do one more revision, wed morning do one more.. can finish.. yay!!

play play play is my attitude now.. i need a study study study attitude.. woooo! STUDY!

Super Sunday..

ok.. so today morning went and studied stats.. I think i understand stats better than FOM sia.. lol.. wth.. so tml im gonna study FOM full steam.. yea! Feeling pumped up right now.. and maybe I'll reward myself with an hour or 2 on the screen.. woooo...

went junk house today.. played warcraft and other crazy games in that.. so cool.. wooo... hahaha.. then after tt go watch saw 4.. not the entire show la.. just snippets.. woo.. the movie so bloody sia.. but all in all it teaches ppl to value their lives?? (junk said tt) but i think that the movie is still sup cos of the psychological factor.. and the people trying so hard to suvive.. like animals they try to save themselves.. so scary.. so watched abit felt woosy le.. so nvr watch le..

today then go cut hair.. well.. really got cut la.. but my parents still say i like nvr cut.. -___-" sad sia.. yes i really GOT cut.. lol..

anyway, saw this line on the tele.. "A kiss is a seal to eternal promise.." nice, huh? but so sad that its broken more then its kept.. so there..

then watched the benchwarmers! haha.. the show so funny la.. hmm.. 4/5? i like how the story flows along.. lol..

some snippets!!! the training part was dam funny haha.. is this how ppl train for baseball??



hope you're doing well nowadays.. not too stressed perhaps? I'm rooting for ya! ^_^

hmm...

lalala.. today studied stats instead of FOM.. getting tired of FOM le.. haha.. sian ma.. then played and played and played.. wth issit with me man.. still wanna play... sian... I AM SERIOUSLY SLACKING... NEED SOME SORT OF MOTIVATION! haha.. if got any words of encouragement would be good sia.. haiz..

hmm.. bo liao i go find wads the difference between jealousy and envy..

Jealousy

Jealousy typically refers to the thoughts, feelings, and behaviors that occur when a person believes a valued relationship is being threatened by a rival. This rival may or may not know that he or she is perceived as a threat.

The word "jealousy" is frequently used to describe what is more properly envy,fixation on what someone else has.

Envy

Envy is an emotion that "occurs when a person lacks another’s superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it."

Envy can be a neutral emotion, e.g. "I envied my fiancee's laptop, and saved to get one of my own."

It can also be a sense of low self-esteem that results from an upward social comparison threatening a person's self image: another person has something that the envier considers to be important to have. If the other person is perceived to be similar to the envier, the aroused envy will be particularly intense, because it signals to the envier that it just as well could have been him or her who had the desired object.

Although envy is generally seen as something negative, Russell (1930, p. 82) referred to envy as “one of the most universal and deep-seated of human passions” and the tendency to feel envy seems to be present in all cultures.

well.. thats taken from Wiki la.. i not a prof in all that.. but it seems that envy is healthy in some cases la.. lol..

heard from my father's friend that its good to feel competitive, but once that turns into jealousy, it gets ugly.. some truth in that..

hmm.. hope you had a nice day today.. ^^

today's special

well.. the sky is dreamy blue, the clouds are white and fluffy, the sun is shining, there is a light drizzle, perhaps a rainbow afterwards? Today's a special day too.. I LOVE it! well.. heres hoping that you would see it too..

today..

wooo.. today morning went to play game with hy and junk.. they pon school i think.. then just went and play one game with them.. lost but still fun.. so gdgd.. lol.. hmm... then play abit more.. then went to school.. yea..

meet ryan and lc at dover.. late by 10 mins.. sorry guys! then they went to take exam, while i went to library read some magazines and books.. by 30 mins, they all come out le.. so quite alright la.. then we went to popular at FC5 buy stationeries, while ryan buy 2 files as requested by amanda and peilin.. after that went FC4 eat lunch.. bought chicken katsu bento set.. wooooo.. so much things sia.. eat le feel so full yeahh!

after tt got energy le.. can revise sia.. lol.. then pia finish the things.. but still half cooked nia.. so need revise more.. all because we crapped also la.. abt this tt girls class ptn and sec school life and so on.. tml i think i can start revise stats le.. woo..

the sky was painted a lovely blue and white today.. I LOVE it.. hope you like it also.. today's special..

there is a big diff between this butterfly and that butterfly lor.. haha.. u shud go see this..





then this song is cool.. i think i like this band already! hahaha.. got a S Full combo for this song in DTX Mania also.. wooooot!

Hope is..

ok.. this is another one of my lessons.. haha.. here goes..

people sometimes say that they dun have hope and so on.. but then that is all false.. hope is a very mysterious thing.. it always appear where and when you least think it would appear in.. so its there 24/7, anytime anywhere..

take for example a simple instance.. where you are trying to.. socre goals in basketball.. you'll always hope the ball will go in when u take a shot.. or when you see a girl you fancy, then you'll hope that you catch her eyes.. its that simple actually.. hope really is everywhere..

so for people who think that their life has no hope, or wadever they think that they are doing is never going to be successful, think again.. if you have hope, you can work hard for it and make that dream come true.. the feeling of "I've done it!" is gonna be great! haha..

so.. today is another sianed day.. how come everyone thinks that i have some problem lol.. i really have nothing to worry about, cos i have hope on my side yeahh! then morning 8am wake up, and do revision for 1hr.. 1 darn hour.. how i get to pass my exam le lol.. ahhhh.. i think i;m addicted to gaming le.. just can't stop... arghh... nvm la.. i'll figure a way out somehow..

mummy's sick man.. and tml she still gna work.. i dunno how shes gonna take it or not.. just take a rest and go see the doctor la.. you think that u are invincible meh?? haiz...

another day of missing and hoping.. for i dunno wad.. haha haha.. it'd sure be great to see you again!

well.. JJ lin the new show 原来我不帅 episode 1 out le.. its dam lame, but funny.. think i'll continue watching it haha..

the lameness in this part so funny haha..

Take note..

wooo.. wonder wad happen sia.. haha.. anyways.. my blog is a so-called venting ground for me la.. so when i got any unhappy things or in a down mood, i'll jot tt down.. dunno why also.. but i know tts partly because i'll be uplifted in a few hours.. so there.. VENT ok? nothing is wrong with me la.. i hope =x

ok.. today jw went out saw a hit and run accident.. sad sia.. the victim dio hit le still jump about in pain before dying.. so cham.. the car then sped away, fleeing the scene.. well.. jw cannot do anything about it as the victim was a cat la.. sad.. how come still got these type of people in Singapore one.. ):

then this evening went out with junk and hy to AMK play pool.. haha.. i know how to play one hor.. not n00b u know? kekeke.. (: alot of -co things happened la.. hahaha.. anyways had great fun with them, so is gd.. hahaha.. too bad ku cannot come.. sians.. or else more fun le lol =D

yea short and swt here.. hahaha

in these periods of time, its inevitable to be busy.. but however please do watch out for yourself, dun fall sick ok?? 보고십어 already.. sia la..

SS Full Combo!

okok.. so last night was boring.. so i went and play DTX again.. haha.. i not nvr play le lor.. is bored then go play.. not bad sia.. got a S full combo first time round.. =D today morning play again.. SS Full Combo!! yay!! then of cos got take screen shot down la.. ^^

today went for CRS TES today.. sian sia.. the topics all i not so sure one.. haiz.. but then also not bad la.. at least can think up 3 arguments and 2 counters.. if can get a B ok le.. haha.. done revision today also.. woo.. with lc lor.. the lecture 3B sure came in handy.. THX LC! haha..

finally the 3 days of " " has ended.. felt so happy seeing you.. haha.. i guess thats my way of getting motivated to come to school everyday.. =D

moderation moderation..

wooo.. so today took a walk to take my mind off the tests, exams, and basically things.. not very successful though but i still enjoyed it.. haha..

so wanted to take a walk at the new garden there.. but then its still not open yet -____- sians.. wth man.. so i just took a walk around it, and then took somephotos of the creepy building.. haha.. abandoned kindergarten lehhs.. scary! lol.. Plus got one uniform over there somemore.. wooo... scary..

up till now haven study as serious as i'd like to.. jialat.. keep playing game.. woooo..

i need to keep it all together.. this is my final year exam! better study hard! I seriously need a study group to keep myself checked..

off to find one now.. ja..

sians.. i seriously can't study.. what should i do now?? anyways.. heres bye bye to the 3 days.. haha.. ^^ Mi Manchi..

Pining.. Pining..

what the hell am I thinking now.. haha.. guess tml no need to go to school le.. issit gd? i dont know.. plus side, you no need to go school le.. no lessons.. minus side, you no need to see your friends, no need to see her.. lol.. ahhh...

my mum finally made me that ever elusive wu xiang.. cool sia.. hahaha.. gdgd..

ahh.. pining and pining.. gd or bad..? i seriously need to get started on my fom and crs le.. revised so little only.. wth.. ahhh...


i guessed nothing much needs to be said.. I MISS YOU..

my head.. hurts!

Ah.. My head hurts.. Must had came from my playing too much computer today.. 10 to 7.. 9 hours.. Wth.. My head..

Dont worry too much la junk.. Just give yourself and her some time.. Then when time up just ask her again lo..

My head hurts.. Freaking hurts.. AHH.. Sian sia.. Better stop at this now le..

Sometimes i just want to tell you what i feel.. But always i'll either dismiss the notion or like the way things are progressing now.. Right.. Then Ya.. Things might get better or problem would be solved when i tell you what i feel.. But sorry, i think that this is seriously a bad idea.. Cos all guy have fear of being rejected ma.. And some more exams so near le.. If i cannot concentrate on revising i will die.. You are a wonderful girl, and i'm glad i met you..

Wah!! My head hurts!

going to school alone..

short post short post! haha.. the title like v sad liddat.. ok la.. i go school today for a test for gems.. 5 mins ok le.. i think i did not bad there.. can get A.. haha..

went to CCK the royal sporting house on the way back.. bought a new pair of shoes.. wooo.. $63.90.. cool sia.. haha..from reebok again.. but nvm... starting to like reebok le.. lol.. i dunno my feet wad size but then the salesperson see my leg.. then pick a PERFECT FIT.. lol.. but i dun wan so got it one size bigger.. Kudos to you! got chance to buy new shoes cos my father the company give $40 rebate for anykind of sports accessories.. they decided to spend it on me.. how honoured!

got my army letter today.. woo.. lame shit.. then 30 jan need go defer le lo.. lucky can do online..

ok la.. the rest of the days were very boring.. and not much ppl were online.. sians... most boring day today..

dunno wads the matter with me but missing you like crazy.. hope to see you every single day ><

Last Day.. of class..

wooot.. last day of class yay! but then.. means that our class are gonna be split le lehhs.. thats so sad.. i felt that theres so many things haven done yet with the class la.. hate it sia..

reflections are simply NOT my thing.. believe me, I've tried.. so no reflections haha.. just say that i've had a great time during the times i'm with the class.. made new friends, new good friends, new best friends.. so many things.. class gossips, class gathering.. so many things.. these made me happy.. I'm a simple man you know.. haha..

either way today ryan got sick.. so we didn't have our last meal tgt, last class tgt, last lecture tgt and so on.. sian lehhs.. we nvr even get to have our last meeting tgt.. lol.. jiawei got come to mrt to wait today sia.. you are one sick guy ryan.. haha... literally..

well.. this means that exams are coming.. holidays are coming too.. need.. to.. find.. work.. *collapses.. lol.. after exams then decide bahhs.. haha..

finally eat my spaghetti le!! yay! but then.. the spaghetti noodle doesn't seem like spaghetti one lehhs.. anyways the spaghetti was ichiban so i went for seconds! yay!


revision week.. nearing exams.. means that I'm gonna miss you very much... thanks you all for making my life so full of ups and downs.. haha..

Insecure Pursuance

Insecure pursuance, so precious that it hurts.. Nice lines included as lyrics.. Yea.. I think that way.. I find that this line is quite nice la.. It can be included in so many things.. Just depends on which dream people are chasing.. For me, quite alot of dreams la..

In one way or another, another line is that your true dream is beside you.. Makes you imagine that there are 'dreams' floating around you, then yet there is one dream that is so bright and clear.. And it doesnt ever forsake you.. Feels good eh? Haha..

Then, todays lesson is to just.. Listen and feel.. There are so many things that you would observe when you shut you mouth up.. I believe that everyone would like some peace and quiet bahhs.. Haha.. You know, while i was taking a walk by myself to admiralty, to Sembawang park, i learnt to listen, and to feel.. Ok there isn't much to listen about, but hell you'll know to appreciate that there are still greenery around.. And also the HDB flats are not the same design.. It was refreshing taking a walk.. Wads more, my leg doesnt cramp up anymore.. Side effect of sitting cross legged on the bed while playing computer games.. Haha..

I believe that everyone have their own things to help them de-stress ba.. This is one of my way of de-stressing.. When walking i never had to worry about the problems that i'm having.. Just grateful that i have family, friends, her, a home, and lots of other things.. Haha.. Wanted to sing out loud, cos i had my mp3 with me but i scared that people will think that i'm crazy, so i just hummed to myself.. Lol!

Tuesday turned out to be quite nice after all.. hmm.. today? haha one of my best days since 1st january.. hahaha.. my worries are all flooding in.. like, how to study for my tests? how to do this, how to do that and so on.. but don't worry.. i feel like a new man again.. lol.. hopefully a more matured one.. haha..

wooo.. resuming writing this again... its said that all girls are equally beautiful, well, for one i think that you are special, beautiful on the inside and out!! ^^

right.. finally tml my mum is gonna be cooking me some spaghetti!! yay!!

a lil' experiment

*Step over and give myself a slap.. Stop wallowing in self pity! You idiot! People always take action to get what they want.. You? Want to give up without a fight? What a wimp you are.. Why doesnt my feelings show? I have a lot of positive thoughts, yet in my outer self, i feel helpless, and sad..

Today is truly a day where i cant truly smile (at least until the afternoon).. My only concern is that my friends will be concerned of me.. What to do? However stupid i am, i still wont do anything really stupid..

In times like this, logical thinking is needed or you end up in the newspaper.. I need a song to pep me up.. wth.. So many song le i still feel like Shit.. I hate it when i feel like that.. Who does? Everytime i feel like this, when shes there, i feel better instantly, but when we go i'll feel worse than ever.. Wth.. Ah well, so long as my lady is feeling good enough is ok le..

I wish i have somebody to scold me and to give me a few well timed punches to knock me out of this, Daze..

Well, todays lesson is on confidence.. For people who are extroverted, their confidence spills out.. They can do anything they want.. Yeah.. Its that simple for them..

For people who are introverted, they find it hard to be confident about new things.. As a rule of thumb, introverted people are quite pessimistic.. They have absolutely no confidence in themselves, even though they will also complete the task eventually, they will be slower in accomplishing it..

Things to make yourself confident includes finding out you passion like eating, walking and so no.. Another thing is to get yourself a role model.. Think about what they would do in the situation..

Superman and other superheroes doesnt count alright? I dont want people after reading the post attempt to fly.. Haha.. Well thats about it.. Well, these tips work to an extent, but ultimately its all about yourself..

hmm.. since i was in no mood to talk in the morning, i decided not to talk at all.. lol.. call it a little experiment.. i was determined to prove people wrong that i can stay quiet all day.. guess not.. haha.. as my mood gets better, i want to interact with people.. lol.. too bad lo i guess.. hahaha..

craving craving is no good.. haha.. yet i still crave for you to just look at me.. what am i thinking?

White night..

In times of great trouble, I can always turn to Arashi.. hmm.. if i nvr heard about the band, what would i listen to in this times??



finished watching Byakkotai a couple of days back.. not bad the show.. the end touched me a lil' heh heh..


then now watching Bambino! yea.. with the !
not bad also.. haha.. watched 5 episodes le.. frankly, i dunno what i'll do without these entertaining shows entertaining me all these months..




this is what I'd had wanted after falling.. White Night..


I'd want to watch this with you..

A psychiatrist is both a doctor and a patient..

Feeling down now.. so better write this down before my 'down' mood is gone..

Today i saw an interesting thing.. When people are expression-less, their mouth becomes a 'n'.. Are people naturally sad? I mean, when people are in a good mood, they laugh or smile more often only.. When did you see people in a good mood have a mouth shaped like a 'u'?

Sorry but today is not like yesterday.. Its not going to end with a good note today.. Today is a bad day for me.. Maybe this is my fault.. Well, i messed everything up.. Everything! How am i going to know her better if i keep shutting my mouth up?

Honestly, i always want to blow my top and just NOT give everything a dam.. But i just cant seem to do that in her presence..

For days now my only choice of getting this off my chest is by talking to my brothers.. -.- i know.. They always make me feel better but deep down, im still frustrated as i never take measures to solve this problems..

Maybe its because i think too much.. but things doesnt get better just by thinking about it.. You have to take action to resolve the whole thing.. Sometimes i just.. Like now.. I dunno, but if i was to die, im sure to die of wrath.. At myself.. I feel so helpless.. As this issue is a one-man war.. No one can help me THAT much..

Honestly, i dont require any attention of sorts from her.. Up to yesterday, i keep thinking that if only i can get closer to her, i can maybe know her better.. But i guess this is not the case.. The biggest problem lies with me and my attitude.. Yes of course i want wads best for her.. But which guy doesnt want to be the one for his special one?

I cant get this straight also.. How come people, including me, still want to persist in trying to get her to notice you.. Its pretty darn well impossible and yet i continue to persist.. I'm starting to hate this.. Persistence..

Being in this lowest state is considered quite new to me.. Because it was since i came to poly that i felt like this.. Sometimes i wish that i'd went to Np or JC.. That way i wouldn't be like who i'm now.. Acceptance of self is one thing, helplessness is another.. I feel like I'm the one refusing to help myself..

I feel hopeless now..

Perhaps i should go to the dark.. But i know that all is lost for me if i feel that way.. Maybe i'll fight till the light around me is extinguished..

HELP ME..? how?

Mr. Wise Guy

It doesn't matter what you or others think about yourself, the only thing that matters is to ACCEPT it and move on.

well, this is a quote coming out of me la.. not taken from any sites.. haha.. however much i think of that.. the only thing that i can accept is the fact that i sucks.. lol.. suffering from low self esteem bahhs.. i dunno how to face it head on.. the only thing that i can do is to accept it.. then i can really improve on it.. its half a battle won already.. yay..

List of things I feel about myself

1) Low self esteem/ confidence
2) Sucks at communicating
3) Insensitive piece of ***
4) Selfish
5) Greedy(?)
6) Pessimist
7) Self Centered
8) lemme think about it first..

ever wondered how easy it is to think of negative things about yourself or other people? then see, what are the positive things that you can think of about yourself or others?

hard? I guess thats because people are just people.. they see other's weaknesses more often than they see people's strengths.. for goodness sake, I don't even know what my strengths are!


sorry to make you all think so deep.. however, whatever you think something bad about yourself or others, just remember that its because of all this strengths and weaknesses, there are no two same human beings on earth..

you are special in your own ways.. lets let it be so.. dont ever feel down once you think about your weaknesses..

Accept yourself. Love yourself.

raining

today is a sad day... its raining.. i hate rain when it brings down one's mood.. why do i keep trying? why? looks like the answer to this is with me.. negative and negative does not add to positive, but positive and negative add to positive.. get it?

i hate my guts.. even though i say it, i dont mean it.. why do i say it? what am i thinking?

anyways, finished reading My Story.. 3 days and finish it.. fast reader? dunno.. borrowing a book which I'd gave someone as a present? how hopeless am I? -____-

next time will be sure not to repeat this again.. -.-

one more thing.. will be returning the book to you at wednesday.. so no worries eh, joy?

haiz.. i hate rain when it bring down one's mood.. how come i feel so lousy inside? so worried inside? so skeptical inside? how come i just cant look at the bright side? is the bright side hard for me to find in this situation? i hate this i hate that.. is there anything i ever like? yes there is.. few but happy things..

talking with u guys are probably the best thing to happen in this time.. take my mind off things.. yes you did.. i hate feeling like this.. so helpless here.. if i can only.. NO! I can do this and that.. i can win this.. i can never truly fail unless i never tried my best..

people may think i'm stupid and so on.. but i'll never give up, not with my friends cheering me on.. defeated even without "fighting" is just too much for me.. once this is overcome, i'll be able to give my all.. watch me..

BDay!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY JUNK!!

haha.. lol.. nice la.. 18 le.. can watch M18 movies ^^ but i still got 1 year to go =.= sians.. haha..

short short today!!

felt happy today!! haha.. you make me so! i just hope that the day doesn't end.. ^^

The Day before

lalala... ok la.. ytd morning went school saw lin tun le... lol.. he was late for school again.. i guessed as much.. haha.. nvm la.. we chatted quite happily too ^^ got quite alot things say so is quite gd.. yeahh! reached school le then saw alvin and chong yan while waiting.. =.= so lame sia.. of cos i see you la chong yan... still wan make me.. i think some things never change as the years get by haha..

cant say i dun like it!! lolol!! ^^

then the rest of the day so high lol... at night went out with ku go walk walk near my house there la.. lol.. almost get lost -____- haha... lucky still can find way back la.. ang moh lang kia ang moh chu.. lol.. we passed by alot of foreign workers btw, and the rice they were eating smells sooo good!! haha..

U really make my days.. hope you make my day everyday!! haha

School!

lol.. weird huh? blogging about school.. sians.. tml got presentation sia.. die le lol.. and i still got some tut and past yrs and assignments haven do yet.. haha.. relax.. exams are coming in 3wks time.. sians..

I'm in control of everything, don't need to rush ^^

sians..


there's one song.. the BG also intrigues me lol.. cos its like high, then low, then high, then low.. cool sia.. see where u can find tt.. lol



another quote.. always give your best when aiming for a thing.. if you don't give your best, you might as well give up already..

BORING...

its so boring now.. I hate it man.. how come today no one jio me go out hahaha..

feeling so bored.. like this.. lol