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保護色 - 蘇亦承

想對你說的　讓他先說了
從此只能　猜測
你流淚是因為　快樂

想要給你的　他先給你了
從此只能　負荷
寂寞和愛　本來能分割

祝福你是我的保護色
專心扮演朋友的角色
在你們擁抱的那一刻
我心一分為二

欺騙你是我的保護色
甘心做個愛情的弱者
真愛不死就能逃得遠遠的
等待是我職責(愛你是天擇)

路越走越曲折　不能回頭了
能傷害我的　都是我愛的
還保護什麼　還保護什麼

suddenly felt like this.. thats me.. admitting defeat without even trying.. will work hard to jia you!! getting into this state is not easy for me.. I'm just saddened.. dun ask me why..

so many days had passed without me not thinking of you.. i want you to know how much you mean to me.. but i can't.. afraid of ruining everything.. my life just wont be the same without you.. I..

8 days later..

2 more days to skit presentation sia.. wth.. i so scared la.. haha.. but should be able to do o.k. la.. haha.. just left rehearsal only.. should be finished le lor.. but then last week the teacher sick.. then postpone to this week.. dam sian man..

5 more days to submitting fom report.. jia lat la.. here miss something there miss something.. wth man.. i wan bonk my head.. nowadays so many things to do.. not stressed la.. just alot of things need do.. haha..

8 more days to do fin fom ppt and present the ppt to class.. so fast! sians... ahhhh... i just wan spend some time to play my stuupid game, watch jdorama, chat to peeps and so on.. i know i can do it la.. just lemme do what i can.. cannot i push to others lor.. what are frens for?!?! haha.. lame shit..

oh yea.. pics here.. yea..


































i wanna talk to you lots... so stuupid of me la.. up till now still got time to think of you.. am i foolish? only time will tell.. i feel like a lovesick puppy sia.. haha.. i prefer the seal better.. ^^ its sirotan just found out.. haha.. hope got a chance to buy for u.. -.-' haha.. really..

doin fom placing strategy now.. this is a piece of #$@!# sia.. i wan bonk my head on wall.. haha.. very stress leh.. but report i'm certain by next monday can hand up.. no probs.. if I'm here, every things fine.. hahaha..

today then also went to vivocity.. haha sians.. walk till leg pain.. we went there to scout out and take pics of toys r us la.. tired.. then went to competitors shops.. on the way there ar, i finally found the seal toy le.. so kawaii la.. haha..

anyways i gtg le or else dio scold and cant wake tml.. lol.. good night!

so tired now.. just thought of talking to you.. haha.. even though i dunno wad to talk about.. anyways hope you have a good night's sleep... oyasuminasai!

wad a busy day..

wahh.. today so busy.. only monday sia.. haha.. just finished 2 individual GRADED assignment then now got 2 more.. can projects be never ending?? haha.. i'm tired la.. so many things need do.. then still got meal need treat ppl.. my budget is gonna go over the charts!! haha.. actually i dun mind la.. whats a little meal gonna do to me?? i think thats a time for me to catch on with my classmates.. during hols le ma.. can find out wad they are doing..

sian sia.. we are separating next year leh.. so sad la.. i dun wanna leave my class of DBA/05 T.T

all my good memories are there lor.. if change classes le will i be left alone there? i hope not.. haha.. only good thing is that you get to make new friends.. ^^
but then our class haven bonded so well.. so i dun wanna leave until that is done sia.. i guess thats who I'm bahhs..

other qualities i cannot say for myself but I'm sure that I'll stick with my friends.. close la.. if not close they dun even wan to stick with u.. haha.. thats what i think la..

I don't know about you, but I am sure that you had helped me a lot.. arigatou for what you had done for me.. even if you doesn't realise it.. just very thankful that I'd met you.. you make my day.. everyday!

JDorama Time

wooo.. been doin my projects and homework since yesterday.. its all so rush man.. 2 weeks till FOM project final, 1+ weeks till FOM report submit.. everything is soo hectic.. looking forward to holidays ahahaha.. another 14 days to go then..

been watching LIFE for these 2 days.. nobody to give me advice on which Jdorama to watch so i searched for myself lor.. lol.. ^^

Glad that I've watched it.. basically, LIFE is based on a manga by someone.. haha.. i forget name le.. this is a drama that touches on the darker side of high school life, and deals with topics such as self mutilation, rape (almost), bullying and so on..

however, sometimes the bullying is too extreme.. imagine somebody forcing you to swallow needles!! haha.. the boyfriend of manami is soooo sadistic.. the glasses guy is a good man.. thought hes the bad guy when i first saw him.. haha..

the drama when i first watched I thought that its very dark, and i dont wan to watch at first.. but the drama gets better and better.. really.. i think is around episode 4 bahhs.. hahaha.. sometimes i just hate manami..

IT MEANS THAT HER ACTING WAS GOOD DAMMIT

yea.. really good.. i dun like her that much la.. haha.. hmmm.. i think hiro is cute.. haha.. ^^ the specs girl is also nice.. with 2 pony tails i think..

anyways, from the show, it shows that bullying -> more bullying -> even more bullying..
that sux.. you guys and gals need to see it.. haha.. its nice.. I'll give it 5/5 sia.. ><
<-- Manami (she looks cute sey.. acting also good) ^^
(up) Hiro.. (She looks like someone.. but forget wad her name was.. haha.. very kawaii also) ^^







(the only male) Sonoda (hes cool.. and hes the glasses guy) ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

haha.. today nothing much to blog about lehhs.. FOM is getting the best of me.. I'm all juiced up for it.. haha.. CD too... left half a page to complete.. guess I would do it tml bahhs.. today is for FOM, and maybe some anime watching, manga viewing, shows watching and so on... haha.. nothing to write sia..

missing lots..

On a better note, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH! hahaha.. 17 le wors..

#101

today morning junk message me asking me to go with him to suntec... then after school go suntec lor.. I shall skip the school part cos theres nothing interesting to tell u all here.. LOL.. then he also ask his godsis and her fren to come.. ok la.. i just tok to junk at first.. we talked about his life at school.. then about his life story.. how he getting on with his girlfriend and so on.. haha..

quite glad he getting on fine la.. so i quite fang xin.. haha.. then we go queue for de Donut Factory too.. hahaha.. i bought 6 of them and he bought 12 of them.. hahaha.. so much right? then after that we went walk walk and then went eating at Pasta Mania.. ate chicken sausage pasta with combo 2.. and at a price of $10.50.. then Junk had to "support" me with 50 cents.. hahaha..

after the meal the girls went to shop shop while we just tagged along.. sian.. he then remembered and asked me how am I doing.. hahaha.. just tell him everything lor.. sometimes i so xian mu him got gf.. but then all things have 2 sides to that la.. some personal things i dun tell here le.. hahaha..

when he asked me that question, i was reminded about you.. missed u bad ><

100th post

yay.. finally this is my first 100th post le!! yeahh!! hahaha.. today is a kinda average day.. during break my group went doing FOM ca2 la.. so sian lor.. we chose Action City.. then went to start trying to do this and that.. haha..

after that, and an hour later, me, liang chai, huiwen, chee keng and amalia went to AMK to the childcare center to do voluntary/CIP work.. guys went to wipe off dust from the lamps and the fans while girls went to disinfect the mattresses and the chairs.. during the time i was wiping the light, ryan called me.. i was on a ladder and need to pick up my phone.. lol.. then i picked up la.. quite dangerous sia.. and they want to change to minitoons.. anything goes.. we haven even start ma.. haha after we finished the lamps and fans we naturally went to help the girls la.. We're gentlemen ma.. ^^ then after that we went to drink rebina and also to eat the nuts in wasabi.. quite nice lehh.. haha..

after the break the people wan us to see what we can do for making a room into some sort of courtyard.. we left the girls to do it while me and liangchai went to the nearby rubbish dump to take out a trolley.. wth man.. its sooo smelly.. then i just went in to the DEEPEST part and pushed the trolley out with the help of liang chai.. then we went to take the items to throw away and put it on the trolley..

when we went to the trolley there, we also saw a surprised bangala..haha.. just apologised to him and run out lor.. and we presented the plans to the people, and they asked us when we free again.. haha.. in hols lor.. so we just tell them and we'll also go next time to help make the courtyard.. someone with proficiency in tying great knots is in need here!

nothing much to say here but.. hahaha.. you made my day yesterday! hope you are doing well.. so so much to tell you..

today...

today got the CRS crap la.. hahaha.. then wear the birthday gift that my classmates bought me lor.. quite nice la.. but a bit too short for my liking.. hahaha.. haiz.. when joy de group went presenting de CRS sure got ppl got questions wan ask but then.. sometimes i feel that they ask questions in a "YEA-I-WANT-TO-PICK-A-FIGHT-WITH-YOU" tone.. WTF is wrong with the class these days man.. then i got ask qns about jerry's de group lor.. dunno whether the question i ask is ok-ay but I'm going to try ask more qns nxt wk.. I want my marks la.. CRS is a cannot get "C" subject.. if i get it my chances of getting honour roll would be O.O

haha.. then joy today going Japan le la.. so 羡慕 her lor.. so Bon voyage and ¡Bien viaje! and so on la.. just dun forget the class and bring us some souvenirs.. haha.. lol just jk..

tml going help out with Child@Street11.. so sad la.. cos the kids got HFMD.. tml going help out disinfect the whole place.. since for today and ytd they goin disinfect i think tml wun die bahhs.. then go help out le can also get back the CIP forms.. haha.. I not exactly cut out for volunteer work but I'll try.. ^^ maintain a positive outlook pls.. haha.. I dun wan fall apart..

If you'll only just listen to me.. I have a lot of things to say to you.. dam.. Hope I never scare you away.. If that's so, I'm gonna kill myself.. nothing's more painful than u ignoring me.. Forget it.. I'll always be strong to carry on.. don't worry about me.. just carry on with your studies and succeed in everything.. You achieving your goals is DEFINITELY better than what I feel..

Monday

today's the day when i went out in my new clothes.. haha.. ok la.. so reactions but theres none so bad.. lol.. Amanda: "why you 2 (Me and Ryan, he was wearing semi formal) wear liddat ar? going wedding dinner?" then we said "Yea.. Our wedding dinner" or something liddat la.. hahaha.. LOL..

wahh.. I think i too irritating le la.. lol.. sorry! Guess Joy de group really was annoyed with me.. haha.. with me keep asking them abt their CRS.. how I know ma.. haha.. nvm la.. Hope Joy still will buy souvenior for me when she returns from Japan la..

wahh!! 10 le!! I want go watch Heroes.. so cya tml!!

Dunno wad to say, but just that.. good luck then..

AMK Hub.. again..

today my parents want go walk walk abit.. haha.. then they can't choose where they want to go.. thus we went to AMK Hub.. I was like wad? again? yesterday I just went leh.. haha.. but then just follow suit lor.. haha.. we then went AMK Hub la.. haha..

we then went window shopping.. heh heh.. then is when we saw a shop that sells clothes.. and since i figured i gonna buy new clothes lately.. we went in to have a look lor.. the saleswomen was quite.. scary la.. hahaha.. she just stuffs clothes into my arms and then told me to change into them.. i did what i'm told.. surprisingly.. haha.. so i just go change lor.. I must say.. I looked quite smart myself haha.. so wth.. I went and buy a tee and jeans.. $128 sia.. haha.. quite shitty expensive..

If i fail to turn a few heads tml, I'm gonna bong my head.. think no ones gonna notice la.. hahaha.. so now I'm doing this shitty CRS.. wth man.. need think of arguments.. like what Makio would say.. hanya? hahaha.. gonna do my work le.. ja..

What should I say? Sorry.. Gomenasai.. Lo Siento.. If I'd done anything that irritated you.. really..

UrGe

omg.. whats has happened to me?? I actually have an urge to do my homework today.. hahaha.. alwright did pacc, econs and stats le.. but then stats do halfway through found out i calculated wrongly.. so here I'm again.. hahaha.. pacc and econs also have their fair share of hard questions, or I'm just plain lazy to do it.. so started from 8+ to 945.. yea.. and yesterday I actually completed my ITAB project.. so all its left is the animation and sound and movie clips. and slide transistion and so on.. either way the hard part is done.. so there..

now I left CD and CRS and FOM and ITAB frontpage Project.. kakoii.. think I can squeeze in watching JDorama, movies and play games.. well done you! oh yea.. still have my rehearsal for GEMs class.. i think its ok-ay de.. haha.. after all that is facing myself and other.. wooo.. hope its as easy as how i complete my homework.. that'd be absolutely great!!

P.S. I'd say the MTV for SunWuKong kicks ass.. hahaha..

watching movie!!

today went to meet sarah, mao mao, hong yew and xin yi to go watch HERO.. yea.. the show length is 2 hrs.. yea its quite funny.. since funny = nice, thus quite funny = quite nice.. haha kekeke.. the korean actor act like only 5 mins out there nia.. then after that no more le.. might as well get extra to get in it.. sian sia.. haha.. now waiting for family to go buy dinner.. hahaha.. so early eat? can la.. at night need do project so need all the time that i can get..

after the movie we then went walking around AMK hub lor.. haha.. we went from storey to storey and go talking away lor.. haha.. My boss, My Hero is nice lor.. JDorama rox!! haha.. also went talking to sarah abt everything lor.. Its been a mess this week.. dun bother telling it now.. hahaha.. I sure can cope with it just as i cope with my homework and projects and others..

waking up at 4am

i dunno la.. stupid dream lor.. its not exactly a nightmare, but I can't phrase it.. damn.. guess I'm IN for it now.. wa kao!! freaking dream.. but not exactly fine to say it now.. but then i can give you guys a hint..

日有所思，夜有所梦.. haiz..

sad la.. guess the memory of it will stay with me forever, or at least until I've either succeeded or failed in... stupid.. guess I'm going emo all over again.. -____-

haii.. I don't know why, but if i cannot see you or speak to you, I'll feel very uneasy.. wonder what am I gonna do after you've walked away from me.. after breaking the big question, everything is gonna change for the better or for worst.. personally, it doesn't really matter.. all I want to be to you is being ur guardian angel (dunno how to phrase but its something like that).. everybody has their own choices so even if this is not what you want I'll be happy about it.. no problem..

results day!!

today get back the remaining 2 results le.. did quite well today.. actually satisfied with the results.. LOL.. haha.. at least got B+ or above.. so quite proud of myself ahahaha..

here goes my results: PAcc 76 B+ (just.. Stunned..)
ITAB 79 B+ (what the heck man.. can't they just gimme 80 marks? then A le leh)
Econs 84 A (can get better for it if i didn't change my ans in the last min.. pleased notheless haha)
Stats 99 A (dunno how i got that but still.. LOL.. ((^_^))

thats it.. haha.. if can get 3.5 GPA for de year de best la.. hahaha.. like lion always says.. dududugo! hahaha..

option talk

wooo.. option talk yesterday.. basically they talked crap there for like 1 hr +, and then we left the LT lor.. haha.. i'm keeping my options open right now la.. haha.. ytd was quite a happy day for me la.. its after tuesday ma.. and tuesday was feeling quite down, and then chatted with kieran and felt better instantly.. lol.. then yesterday got try and greet my classmates la.. but abit too jiang le.. I need more practice la.. haha.. then yesterday really got a kick out of chatting with my friends.. haha.. alot to talk about yesterday.. hope today will be even better ^^.. i wanna chat till tml haha..

then today went to FOM in de morning.. haha.. then got de results for de report come out le.. lucky we got 84.. thats a sweet 42% out of 50%.. so i think can maybe get a solid B+.. haha.. that'll be great man.. really hope can get a B+ >< .. I DUNNO HOW TO DO MY PACC.. OMG LA.. somebody come to my help right now!! haha.. dun understand what the qns is toking and dun understand the topic.. cos last thursday i nvr bring my txtbk to school.. dunno le la.. wish me luck ^^

wish me luck tml guys.. I'm getting my pacc results la.. hope i dun do THAT badly.. haha.. that's my blog for today le bahhs.. haha..

Looking for you as motivation.. hope that this is the real deal this time round.. I can't help but wonder.. I will not forget you no matter what happens.. for worst or best I'll remember you..

My friend Kieran..

yesterday was the most depressing day of my life.. thinking back about it, it was all a blur la.. haha.. i just felt envy and was also very angry yesterday.. i kept worrying about this and about that.. i was just angry and very very worried about something.. wanted to bash something up.. haha..

then i was quite afraid of myself.. i was afraid of falling into depression sia... then i wanted to chat with someone le.. haha.. junk had no time.. so i was alright with that.. kieran then came la.. haha.. we went to de 'place'.. cos i dunno wad to call it, and we chatted.. about schoolwork, christian stuff (life experiences of kieran's and can apply to me), other stuff also.. we just chatted like old friends la.. Yesterday was the most depressing day for me.. yet the day when i discovered that friends are standing with you, even if they are too busy or something.. even junk was concerned abt me yesterday..

everybody, I'm feeling better now thanks to u all!! no need to worry so much about me le..

ohh.. today was also the first time I shaved.. haha.. was gentle the first time la.. scared i cut myself.. haha..

wooo.. finally got rest of de photos le..

yea man.. got the rest of the photos le.. so today will be an photo blog.. haha..

highlights of the day.. an emo pic!! haha

bday

WOOOO.. today is my bday!! 1 more year till I can watch M18 movie le.. woot!! hahaha.. loving it now.. lovin the way I'm.. hahaha... my poly frens also got give me present.. so touched.. haha.. today still say happy bday to me.. must be cos i requested them to say happy bday to me today, on sat cos i still 16 then..

its quite a major milestone of our lives i must say.. we are on the threshold of reaching adulthood, from teenagers.. haha.. wth am I toking.. just say that I'm very happy today ok le.. haha..

some pics first^^ how come my eyes everytime like -.- one? lol.. must be the blasted specs.. lol!

haii.. today also get to bugis to get some thing.. cant say i found it.. but still got it.. haha..

this sux.. man.. lol.. nowadays i feel envious of everything, and I feel I'm behaving like a child infront of SnoW la.. it so sux big time..

I also need to buck up even more now!!! need to feel motivated motivated motivated!! I need powerups from my source.. haha.. being learning jap.. dunno why also.. maybe is de influence of JDorama and friends bahhs.. lol.. watch finish Gokusen II le.. haha.. at first was planning to watch 1 litre of tears nxt but then some episodes taken out of stage6 le.. so too bad la.. watching my boss my hero next haha.. i dun wan say more le.. so cya peeps next time.. haha..

I hate myself for being a worrier.. haha how come man.. maybe due to certain episodes in my sec school life or i just dun have experience bahhs.. dun think it'll work out though.. haha.. just believing in myself is not enough.. need to talk to SnoW more often la..

liang chai's photo

hmm.. too bad he only got took some photos of himself.. if got more hor, then is dam coool le.. hahaha.. from what i saw, he was very caring sia.. haha.. and dave called him when he first saw liang chai.. everybody was stunned sia.. hahaha.. so now for the photos!!

remember, this is made possible by Child at Street 11!!









































he looks so relaxed lol.. bottom pic!!
















and deepak actually DID something.. haha.. ytd was a great day!!