read previous post for details. in the end. i don't get a clear idea of what we are talking about anymore..

maybe this shows how much of a dipshit andass i am.

(9:41 PM) Robin:	lol u got wonder b4 what is your role in life?
(9:41 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	LOL stop talking abt ur blog post -_-
(9:41 PM) Robin:	tmd when u go see sia
(9:41 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	my role is to die away un noticed
(9:41 PM) Robin:	i just uploaded only eh i mean posted
(9:42 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	leaving this insignificant body mind and soul behind
(9:42 PM) Robin:	thats no good. lol
(9:43 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	hahaha
(9:43 PM) Robin:	wad i want to find out is exactly what am i doing working so hard for
(9:43 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	i'm a pessimist
(9:43 PM) Robin:	fighting so hard to do what?
(9:43 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	kill me for it
(9:43 PM) Robin:	why am i doing what i am now?
(9:43 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	HAHAHA i aint even doing anything
(9:43 PM) Robin:	what am i here for anyways?
(9:44 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	wondering aimlessly looking for guidance to somewhere
(9:44 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	somewhere where there are happiness miracles
(9:44 PM) Robin:	right now as i see it i am just studying for studying's sake, playing for playing's sake, fucking up for fucking up's sake damn happiness i have
(9:44 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	lol
(9:44 PM) Robin:	i want to know what is my purpose in life nia
(9:45 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	purpose is to die insignificantly
(9:45 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	as u're jus an insignificant person in other ppls life no one would notice no one would care
(9:45 PM) Robin:	so what? i'm not insignificant till i cannot see myself you're the devil, man
(9:45 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	everyone would jus forget
(9:45 PM) Robin:	even if everyone forgets, you won't forget yourself
(9:46 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	u will forget urself as u're alr dead
(9:46 PM) Robin:	i supposed u dont believe in life after death ba
(9:46 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	hahahaahaha thats something i cant make myself believe in
(9:46 PM) Robin:	the moment u forget yourself, you wont exist is that correct?
(9:47 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	once u die u alr cease to exist
(9:47 PM) Robin:	if u haven die yet?
(9:47 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	memories can be forgotten feelings eroded
(9:47 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	they'll jus blow past like the wind
(9:48 PM) Robin:	there's always the conscious self. no matter how hard you try, u can't forget yourself. what are memories compared to your "true self"? we are talking about the consciousness le
(9:48 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	the prob is can u even find ur true self in this superficial world
(9:48 PM) Robin:	true if u lose your memories, u wont remember yourself
(9:48 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	everyones hiding behind masks and slowly u forget who u really are
(9:48 PM) Robin:	but does that means u wont find yourself anymore?
(9:49 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	with guidance yes u'll find urself again if not dream on
(9:49 PM) Robin:	i take the believe that if u are eroded, are you sure that your true self is not eroded?
(9:49 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	nothing last forever u know? NOTHING memories feelings true self
(9:50 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	they're jus a tool or method human use to find meaning to their lives
(9:50 PM) Robin:	even if everone hides behind a masks, there will be parts where people can find the true self
(9:51 PM) Robin:	if what u say is true, then by what process does people put in memories?
(9:51 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	but those parts will disappear once u forgotten wad ur true self is
(9:51 PM) Robin:	can we say that we, as of now, don't exist?
(9:51 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	yes den u tell me
(9:51 PM) Robin:	then we are taking the mask for true self?
(9:51 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	why do u live in this world? why are there pain and suffering? wads the meaning of life?
(9:51 PM) Robin:	why are there things as hope?
(9:51 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	wads ur true self hopes are jus a way ppl use to deceive themselves
(9:52 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	hopes are delusional its nvr real
(9:52 PM) Robin:	as much as i don't want to admit, a portion of myself resists when i say that we don't exists. what is that then? delusions? HOPE? or just stubborness?
(9:52 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	jus plain stupid
(9:53 PM) Robin:	stupid is not an issue here, alright lol
(9:53 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	lol wahaha
(9:53 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	everyone is unwilling to face up to the reality.....its true that humans live a meaningless life wealth? for wad? material stuffs? love?
(9:54 PM) Robin:	the main point is. if memories are just tools that people create, then what really are memories? a part of hope?
(9:54 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	jus to get affection from ppl
(9:54 PM) Robin:	everyone wants affection. right?
(9:55 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	yes...but wads the meaning of getting affection
(9:55 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	when u have to go through so much jus to get them? why do ppl have great lives...or so they say....
(9:55 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	and why do some have terrible lives getting incurable diseases?
(9:55 PM) Robin:	what about affection in areas where you are not looking for? like parent's love?
(9:56 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	so ppl do not have parents love
(9:56 PM) Robin:	ya, but then it all boils down to why we all exists again
(9:56 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	thats why we are living a meaningless life as theres no reason for us to exist
(9:56 PM) Robin:	i say that everybody has some form of love self love, is still love
(9:57 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	but to attain self love
(9:57 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	u have to have gone through pain in all other love
(9:57 PM) Robin:	then why is there life? and i disagree
(9:57 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	DEN u'll learn to love urself life is jus a random thing that happened
(9:57 PM) Robin:	you need to love yourself before u can call yourself qualified to love others
(9:57 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	an accident theres life because of an accident
(9:58 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	its jus mere coincidence
(9:58 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	and because of that accident theres no meaning to life
(9:58 PM) Robin:	even if its coincidence, it would need to have a purpose. in order to exists like people with no purpose in life wilt away but just talk about plants
(9:59 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	they live on cause they wanna find the meaning to life
(9:59 PM) Robin:	they still sprout even if some wilt
(9:59 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	which will nvr be found
(9:59 PM) Robin:	purpose of all living things other than people?
(10:00 PM) Robin:	you cannot simply say that they live just because they exists to feed people
(10:00 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	well thats wad all humans think other animals exist jus to feed us
(10:00 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	we're the superior species
(10:00 PM) Robin:	maybe we should ask a plant that. lol, and then we can find out the"truth" to their purpose in life
(10:01 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	plants purpose is to bring more life to this wretched place
(10:01 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	if i ever am gonna be a bio chemist i'll engineer a virus that'll wipe out all plants on this damn place
(10:02 PM) Robin:	ok lets go on another view. people are superior species. why is that? issit because "life" deemed us worthy enough to be able to find out what we are living for? so "life" gave us intelligence, that other species have not enough of?
(10:03 PM) Robin:	lol.
(10:03 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	its cause of this damn intelligence thats why the earth is dying
(10:03 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	did nature give us that to killing ourselves? do u see other animals doing things that will affect their well being?
(10:03 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	and u call us the superior ones?
(10:04 PM) Robin:	oi. u said human think they are superior de wad lol but animals do things like cannibalisation
(10:04 PM) Robin:	is that to their well-being or not?
(10:05 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	thats cause they do that to protect the equilbrium of their ecosystem
(10:05 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	and we kill each other for? NO FUCKING REASON
(10:06 PM) Robin:	then healthcare? if everything is done through natural selection, then we obviously wont be as intelligent as we think
(10:07 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	u think healthcare really helps???? by coming a medicine how much viruses have we made?
(10:07 PM) Robin:	or can we say that people are killing one another to "protect the equilibruim of the ecosystem"?
(10:07 PM) Robin:	viruses had already been there even before people gained intelligence
(10:07 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	anthrax? this was not there
(10:07 PM) Robin:	viruses also evolve anthrax would have to be "evolved"
(10:08 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	nuclear weapons that causes cells to mutate?
(10:08 PM) Robin:	people can't create things out of nothing everything is there just depends on how people use it metal is there. who thought that it can be made into machines?
(10:09 PM) Robin:	gold is there. who thought that it can become a form of currency?
(10:09 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	BUT....thoughts are created out of nothing arent they?
(10:09 PM) Robin:	you have you brains to begin with
(10:09 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	brains is the help function ur body
(10:10 PM) Robin:	there is brain activity when people are thinking
(10:10 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	since its physically changing the things that are alr there thoughts arent physical
(10:10 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	can u even prove that they are there?
(10:11 PM) Robin:	haha. if you are thinking that, then it will be there issit not?
(10:11 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	thats believing that its there u cant really pinpoint where it is right?
(10:11 PM) Robin:	true true.
(10:11 PM) Robin:	at least we can agree on that people attack useless value to things attaach
(10:12 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	okok bathe
(10:12 PM) Robin:	lol
(10:12 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	i need go out liao lol
(10:12 PM) Robin:	go where sia so good
(10:12 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	haha eat lol
(10:12 PM) Robin:	haha gdgd i'm gna think up of what to do for bd
(10:13 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	LOL
(10:14 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	scientist says thoughts are there jus because they see more brain activity when we're thinking but that doesnt prove anything
(10:14 PM) Robin:	u wanna start again ar?
(10:14 PM) ..|..<(+_Kèññ£th:	lol wahaha

my place?

man. after reading through blogs i found out (admit) that how i post is not very good. you (I) would just wanna say that who cares, its your (my) blog wad. you just write whatever you wanna write, write how u wanna, and just post. After all, its your choice!

lol. i'm feeling that i also have my bad days, where i become more, erm. sensitive/philosophical/intellectual?

anyways, reading through someone's blog made me feel like saying. so what place do i occupy in this world? do i have a mission or aspiration or goal to guide me? perhaps not.

up till now, 18 and more than a half years old, i just studied like i was expected to, play like i wanted to, got into trouble when i felt like it, left some secrets here and there. but now, comparatively speaking, i felt like i am choosing courses for poly again.

why? its like, what do i wanna do in my life? or to put it simply, what place do i have in the world? its like, i'm a free-thinker, mind you, god made each one of us for a purpose right? so what role am i supposed to fulfill? i cannot just keep playing or studying forever. I know sooner or later i may have to work, feed my own family, and do all those things that adults do, or get to do.

yes, to tell you the truth, i guess i'm just a child. lol. i can be what you say, immature, childish, geeky, nerdy and so on.

sidetracking..

well, its like i read somewhere, people put on different faces on different occasions. like in school i think that i am those kinds that just study or whatever. but at home i will be like arguing with my brothers over the smallest things, ask kenneth for example. of course, i'll feel ashamed, but that doesn't mean that i will admit to it.

back on track..

so now the thing is, or what i've just thought up is, i want to know what i'm here for. i just cannot imagine a future where i "grow up" or finally become an adult, which means that i get to be independent. I've always liked to be led. i don't feel like leading but that doesn't mean i cannot lead. why? because i feel the most comfortable to have a plan decided for myself rather than think up of a plan for projects. its not that i cannot do it, but i just don't want to.

guess i'm just stubborn and has low confidence to boot. hahaha.

another topic..

they say angels do exists. to believers or non-believers. ok. that's from russell lee's true singapore ghost stories book 19. haha. anyways, my point is since i cannot see or feel them, i don't really believe it. like everything else really. i think i'm just another "lost sheep". maybe. its like. i don't sense anything. how to believe? but in all cases concerning the supernatural and the mythical, looking for signs doesn't help. either you receive or don't receive it.

lol. loooking at it another way. i guess i just believe in what i want to, like i believe in ghosts, but not in vampires and werewolves, i believe that god is looking over us but i don't really believe in religion. guess i just swing that way.

i've said so many things, but i guess i just want to see that the things i believe in is real. like i want to receive signs. which i think my nature by itself is sinful? i fear being "turned over to the dark side", or was all along in it.

i did/do bad things. i committed sins. i guess people would think that i'm just a freak when they know what i was up to. or not. i get addicted on things. to things. i've never confessed. i dont want to say what i did. i don't want to say it to another person. secrets, especially personal secrets, should be kept secret until i grow out of it. eventually, i hope.

i feel unworthy of loving people. i suppose i can love myself, but then when it comes to loving other. i have no idea. can being attracted to one be called love? definition of love? infatuation? crush? what the hell is all that? how do you know you are in love? are you sure everyone's way of loving or how they felt when they felt love are the same?

now i feel like i am an empty vessel in another sense. too many things i failed to learn, too many things i want to learn, to many things for me to learn, too many things to accept or reject. its not like i don't like my life, i just want to do something worthwhile. kinda like a milestone or something. I've missed that my whole life, i guess.

I WANT TO KNOW WHAT MY ROLE IS.

i don't want to think by myself being led is better since i don't have to think if i dont have to think that means my life is decided for me i wont need to worry about a thing i dont have to worry about a thing then why am i here if i don't think for myself?

sidetracking..

i'm scared. no. uncertain of my knowledge of the devil. honestly, i think the devil has a lot more to believe about. for one, i believe that everyone has a little devil in them. makes them do evil deeds. i'm scared of what i think about sometimes. its like u felt good from things you did and then after doing that you feel like shit. the devil is messing with us

in the end it comes down to i just want something to believe in. seems like you cannot believe yourself all the time nowadays. why can't there be just an "absolute" truth? or does that mean i haven't found it yet?

bolding helps me think. i guess.

woohoohoo

lol. anyways went back to school after hols. apart from the waking up at 6am part, its going smoothly la. haha.

will have 4 projects this term to freak me out, plus some exams which is in the same week as the presentation and report deadline, the incoming NAPFA test, everything makes me so scared now. especially NAPFA.

personally i won't mind entering army 2 months earlier, just treat it as special training or something. but i wouldn't want to embarass myself when going for NAPFA test. ohmygod.

life is boring lately, so i also have nothing to update about. xD

HMV STILL HAVEN'T CALL ME YET! wtf sia..

anyways its good to see my classmates cum friends again. ahaha.

legend of the golden witch

My beloved hometown, the sweetfish river running through it.
You who seek the Golden Land, follow its path downstream and seek the key.

If you follow the river downstream you will find a village.
In the village, look for the shore the two will tell you of.
There sleeps the key to the Golden Land

He who lays hand upon the key shall travel under the rules below.

At the first twilight, you shall life up as sacrifice the six chosen by the key.
At the second twilight, the surviving shall tear apart the two who are close.
At the third twilight, the surviving shall praise my honorable name of high.

At the fourth twilight, gouge the head and kill.
At the fifth twilight, gouge the chest and kill.
At the sixth twilight, gouge the stomach and kill.
At the seventh twilight, gouge the knee and kill.
At the eighth twilight, gouge the leg and kill.

At the ninth twilight, the witch shall be revived and none shall be left alive.
At the tenth twilight, the journey shall end and you should reach the village of gold.

The Witch will praise the wise, and should bestow four treasures.

One shall be, all the gold from the Golden Land.
One shall be, the resurrection of the souls of all the dead.
One shall be, even the resurrection of the lose love.
One shall be, to put the Witch to sleep for all time.

Sleep Peacefully my most beloved witch, Beatrice

- Legend of the golden witch

I wonder how the people managed to make a story feel compelling to the reader, but i'm excited. no sadistic to find out how episode 1 ends, since its a bad ending yet i dont feel so bad knowing that. aha.

kira kira

i think i get make a name for myself playing weird games from my limited circle of friends..

anyways, Kira☆Kira is a nice visual novel. damn.

lol. guess genie's not out yet. HMV peeps still havent called me to collect my order. and i haven't study SM yet. lol better do it now. xD

Gantz

omg gantz is EPIC

can't believe that this is the last arc, but all good things must come to an end. like supernatural.

anyways tomorrow's my marcom paper. good luck to me.

and the new album still haven't arrived yet. man. how many times must i go to heeren? xD

=)

meh.. a day before MST and i still can go online. =)

anyways later going to HMV to pre-order/buy the new album of SNSD.

I have so much free time, don't I?

:D I like reading this types of analysis. be it true or false, one can't deny that they try to accept and integrate the readings to their personality, or what they do in their daily life etc.

天蝎座

天 蝎座是一个强烈的星座。他们的爱与恨，他们的人生观点，他们的生活方式，都充满了强烈二字，他们强烈的爱憎，强烈的需求，强烈的追求＆索取，而这些强烈的 成分，也使天蝎座变得倔强而坚强。　　沉默外表下的暗潮汹涌.　　天蝎座的外表往往看起来很老实，他们看起来安分守己，中规中矩，并不会第一眼就给人留下 深刻印象。但是如果以为他们真的如此一般，那就是大错特错。　　天蝎们内心总是暗潮汹涌，他们对人生有着强烈的眷恋＆希冀，他们渴望权利，渴望金钱，更渴 望爱情。他们常常不动声色，让人误以为他们沉默乏味。但是那其实只是他们在审时度势的不断观察。　　他们的目标其实一贯都很明确，但他们是小心谨慎的，他 们从不轻易暴露自己心中的想法。　　他们有着长期观察和考验的过程。不论是他们谋求一个职位还是得到一个人。　　一旦他们感到有把握，他们就会立刻出击， 动作迅速，毫不犹豫，而且往往一击致胜。　　强烈而持久的激情　　天蝎们的暗潮汹涌，令他们非常具有爆发力，而他们的爆发力之后又有着强烈持久的激情。　 这或许也可以作为天蝎何以总是排在排名前五的状况。他们诞生的时间，恰是步入中年时期的开端，个人开始卯足全力，以期能在未来达到巅峰。所以，天蝎们具备 了许多分裂不融合的特质，而也使他们拥有比其他星座更多的持久能力。他们富有激情，而且是长期持久的激情。这在其他星座那里是鲜见的。他们如果认定了的人 或事，是很难发生喜新厌旧的状态。所以他们最善于婚外情。因为他们太强烈，需要太多，而他们又如此稳定，所以可以保持更多。　　表里不一的报复心态　　天 蝎们表面看来并没有那么强烈的特质，他们往往显得文静柔弱。但是他们内心坚如磐石，他们有着强烈的自我守护及占有欲望。但是天蝎们并不是真的那么心狠手 辣。他们确实会坚定不移的报复那些曾经伤害他们的人，但是更多时候，天蝎们只是在心里想想而已。他们绝对不宽容，但是他们也并不是真的有他们自己想象中的 心狠手辣，即便是成功报复后，他们也往往会自己承受一段时间的痛苦煎熬，这令天蝎们反复焦灼，也更体现了天蝎座矛盾的性格。　　极端矛盾的性格组合　　虽 然矛盾是人生的一大特征，但是没有比天蝎座更能体现这个词汇含义的星座了。这个星座的人天生就在强烈的矛盾感中度过。　　这源于他们出生的时间就是开始尝 试交融各种互相对立的矛盾事物的阶段。　他们的表现有时候非常奇怪，让人觉得他们神秘莫测，他们对人的方式有时候非常晦涩，让人揣摩不到他们的真实意图， 你以为他们所作所为是因为想要得到A，而真实答案是，他们要的可能不是A也不是B＆C，而是D！　所以要尝试了解天蝎座人，确实需要经过漫长的磨合过程， 要适应他们突然狂躁突然沉默的性格特征。在天蝎们要真正接纳一个人的时候，他们的状态是反复无常的，但是经过了这段时间的斗志斗勇后，天蝎们就会将你真正 接受，而且基本能做到不离不弃。　　天蝎座们许多人穷其一生都会感到焦灼＆痛苦，因为他们的欲望太强烈＆执着，而他们的性格又异常的倔强和坚强。他们需要 的不仅仅是成功。其实他们常常是成功的，但是因为他们永远奋进的执着理想，和他们对美好事物的强烈占有欲望，使他们一生都在不端追寻而无法停下脚步，享受 安逸的生活现状。天蝎们可以考量常常同双鱼们相处。从他们那里能学习到悲天悯人的纯真情怀，也能逐步放下紧张焦灼的状态。

movies, gyming, studies, movies, gyming, movies and so on

wooo went gyming with the usual ryan and hairul, and it was during saturday that i got loads of movies from junkk. xD

watched indiana jones, night at the museum 2, iron man, ghosts of girlfriends past, transformers 2, harold and kumar and some more.. of course i did some revision la..

iron man 2's coming up in 2010, new jack neo movie coming up later the year, fung wan 2 at the end of the year, ice age 3, 20th century boys chapter 2 coming up soon too. tis a good year for moviegoers.

watching with other guys is obviously less fun then watching movies with girls. do keep that in mind.

shucks. sometimes i wish i had a girlfriend. xD

anyways some things i learnt would be that one really has to drop all pretenses infront of the one they like. hahaha. its like a confession like that, i feel, but thats just a single, without any experience point of view la.

heck, sometimes i wish that things would be easier in that a girl would just fall in love with me. at least it would shorten the wooing process. haha. as if it would come easy.

anyways its maybe too early for me ba. i guess i'm not mature enough. as you can see that once i have my first girlfriend, it would result in a happily ever after and things would go damn smoothly. well, maybe that still have a chance of happening. Afterall, i don't have a girlfriend yet. hahaha

being in a bgr is a process that i would like to have a part in but maybe my time is not yet. at least not until i have the confidence or whatever to let me become just a tad shameless and a lot more charismatic. ;)

to think that this rant all came up just because i wish to have that someone. lol. i feel embarassed from writing the above post. lol. oh man i feel like a wuss just saying all these. psssh.

well, i like, but what makes me think that it will change if nothing changed before?

haha. stupid poly days, stupid sec school days. hahaha. its a good way to have fun =)

wellll, i guess i lost quite a good friend in secondary school. may. lol thats kinda stupid but i was plenty nerd back then. i guess i haven't changed in that aspect. haha. you know the $2 hearts that i always told you guys about whenever we talk about folding hearts? haha shes the one who made it. damn, how to make 2 hearts using a single notes sia? anyways, maybe i never did lose a friend like her after all.. man i want her to teach me to make one xP

oh ya. as a side note, ryan and hairul please stop making cindy jokes. its really tasteless unless its the "cyndi" ok? haha

i think once when i was talking to boss where this happened:

(3:59 PM) Robin:	just dun wana care abt her liao no not abt her
(3:59 PM) Robin:	is abt everything abt bgr all those waste my time here only =((
(4:00 PM) smith:	arrh dun bluff la lol
(4:00 PM) Robin:	ahahaha at least now i got more breathing space if i push this issue away though i'll want a gf by jan next yr xD
(4:01 PM) smith:	i think it's simple
(4:02 PM) smith:	u jus wan someone to like you
(4:02 PM) Robin:	nope not tt simple more of
(4:06 PM) Robin:	i wan to like tt someone and for tt someone to like me back ok lol
(4:07 PM) smith:	ha i think the first criteria is for that someone to like u first rite?
(4:07 PM) smith:	cos if u like the person and if the person dun bother u, u will kinda give up alr
(4:19 PM) Robin:	yea u ar
(4:19 PM) Robin:	maybe i just wanna fall in reciprocatory love
(4:32 PM) smith:	yea maybe

ok thats really damn private, but whos gonna read it? xD

either way in order for this (reciprocatory) to happen, its simple, just be in love with each other.
woo way to go robin. anyways one of my super emo previous post was the one about loving oneself in order to love another. well, it works.

stupid boss. it'll really help if he stops trying to distance himself from the rest of the class. stop acting like a machine alright?

anyways to divert from the topic abit, lets say someone once said that if you have money, girls will also flock to you as bees to pollen. well, my view was once bullshit! but as people mature, even a little, i will take this view. why not? since obviously it will make me study harder. haha.

yeah. maybe that was a lie from the very beginning. to make me study harder. lol.

just put in a little more effort, robin. maybe then new paths will open up for you. this does not apply to sexual preferences though. xD

Fate/Stay night

Hero in the present and the future.



















Finale of UBW route




































He looks pretty darn cool, so i guess i wont hate him that bad




































HF route finale

Heaven's Feel

Heaven's Feel

another something..

"I will kill.
I will let live.
I will harm and heal.
None will escape me.
None will escape my sight."
~ Kotomine Kirei

"be crushed.
I welcome those who have grown old and those who have lost.
Devote yourself to me, learn from me, and obey me.
Rest. do not forget song, do not forget prayer, and do not forget me.
I am light and relieve you of all your burdens.

Do not pretend.
Retribution for forgiveness, betrayal for trust, despair for hope, darkness for light, dark death for the living

Relief is in my hands. i will add oil to your sins and leave a mark.
Eternal life is given through death.
---Ask for forgiveness here. I, the incarnation. Will swear.

Kyrie Eleison"

~Kotomine Kirei

Finished the whole thing in 38 hours. oh well..

Unlimited Blade Works

Unlimited Blade Works

just felt like posting.

Ver 1

I'm the bone of my sword.
steel is my body, and fire is my blood.
I have created over a thousand blades.
Unknown to death.
Nor known to life.
Have withstood pain to create many weapons.
Yet, those hands will never hold anything.
So as i prayed, unlimited blade works.

Ver 2

I'm the bone of my sword.
Steel is my body, and fire is my blood.
I have created over a thousand blades.
Unaware of loss.
Nor aware of gain.
Withstood pain to create weapons.
Waiting for one's arrival.
I have no regrets. This is the only path.
My whole life was 'unlimited blade works'.

OMG

comics connection's closing in Sun Plaza!

saddddddddddddddened

anyways.

Friday

spent the morning gyming with the usual ryan and hairul.

stamina's not up to speed. man i sucks.

went to the pc show to get a new HDD. oh ya! I met the 3 sunshine angels of M1 that greeted me and handed me brochures. not bad la huh?
bought a seagate one, 500gb at $179 with a free dock. hope it can last me for a year. i could swear the salesgirl was smiling when i said i was buying the hdd. sales are hard to earn..

tuesday

went to pool with kenneth, hairul, ryan, huiwen, ada, van and wenny. cant imagine that it would get pretty fun at the start, but it did. thanks peeps!

pool skills suck at start, but at least i got comfortable and won hairul pool. xD

went for K since wenny suggested it and we are fine with it.. anyways we heard 4 languages in k la. malay, chinese, vietnamese and canto. damn fun sia. and the girls started jumping about and spewing smoke out in the room, with lazer lights and so on so as to create a "clubbing" atmosphere for us guys who nvr went clubbing before. LOL. yep its entertaining so its ok. hahaha!

gonna go to The Heeren tomorrow to find some albums. hope i can find it..

BUD light!

lol. I'm back to commercial watching days again. xD

found a few good ones. haha.

welcome to the interweb

wooo.. first of all, welcome to the world of movie streaming, dad! hahaha

well, as you all can see, my blogging spree's over. woohoo.. lol.

forget it. thinking of cutting my hair tmr. that's it.

spent.

spent last night at gran's house stayover. aunt said she'll wake me up in the morning but woke up by myself at 8am. lol. then remembered i didn't bring a toothbrush. O_O

anyways then spent the day following rituals and stuff. last night almost drank the coffee for prayer purposes. I swear i did not know that u are not suppossed to drink la. u made it like u need to drink the coffee.. anyways i could swear that i heard ppl laughing when i was made to hold the drink again. haha

then spent afternoon folding papers, and then the night chasing cats. yep. its been a good day.

somehow endless love comes to me when i hear the chants played. saddening issn't it? and the fact that my dream last night was so real, made me wanna hear it more. at least i do now.

为了你而活

in case anyone is wondering why i'm still online even though i slept at 2am last night, its because i slept for 3 hours in the afternoon. There is nothing as satisfying as napping, especially considering the fact that I always got work to do during the week.

the week was fine, and although i was not able to donate my blood, at least i tried.

Haruhi season 2 is finally out! at least this will be a way to while through the hours absolute boredom.

P.S. I need advise! give up?
P.S.S I really hate the GBE teacher. too strong a word. dislike
P.S.S crankiness level tuned way high again. lol.

long day..

spent the day doing surveys, GBE project and napping.
god i hate GBE.
I guess i must be the biggest idiot in the whole world. don't ask me why.
alright. off to sleep!

rejected and dejected.. =(

yeah.. so i got rejected today. man it feels terrible sia. It's not that I don't have a big enough heart or anything, but its because of that that i feel so terrible.

She just said, "ur veins too flat. may collapse". this is one of the reason that stunned me. lol. i thought that maybe because i'm underweight for my height or vein too small. but too flat? what kind of logic is this. I actually felt ashamed when i walked out of the hall. not including the fact that they handed me a sticker that said "Please treat me kindly. This is my first donation."

oh man.

take action..!

yahhh wad a surprise yesterday!

mann congrats ok?

anyways seems like my blogging streak is over. been too freaking busy to blog because of items such as GBE projects, BD surveys and the likes. HATE them. but what to do?

Glad to see that I'm still surviving over here. and i'm having a big headache as of now. ok faster do my BD now. I have nothing to write anyways. haha xD

the start of everything

whew.. spent the weekend travelling to grandma's house to see her. just that will explain my disappearances and my no time to do homework or projects etc. but i did do ok?

sian sia. freaking schoolwork taking my life away. damn. I still cant get rid of lee hyori sia. so i guess i'll be sticking with her much longer. her album is nice. niceness all round with hyori!

actually thought of getting around to do my iaf tutorial, but after doing the first question i lost all drive. wonder how i did that.

ok back to the killing grounds for me. better do my report for gbe..

P.S survey thingy isn't going too well. hard to find pet lovers sia. lol.

P.S.S i really need to get back to my report. haven't even half started.

muses

oh ya. never knew youtubing is so addictive sia. spent the better part of the afternoon youtubing for some live performances. time passes slowly then, so there was no need to mind. once its nightfall, time passes so fast its crazy.

right. was still searching for lee hyori songs. lol. I'm in over my heads with her songs lol. who ask that korean girls all looks so nice huh? haha.

today's the shortest entry yet.

P.S. Hyori, Hyori..

P.S.S I feel happy. at least I have some confirmation of something.


again. *prays* Get well soon Grandma.

problems after problems..

well, today I signed up for the blood donation! the website says that 45kg and above can go for blood donation, so I'll just go try my luck, since I'm underweight. =X

right. went to the hospital to visit my grandma. MAN. She's so thin now la. damn. ya. i almost teared up. twice. damn. what can I write here since it's private matters? couldn't even say a word to her. damn.

Hope you get well soon. Grandma. Let's gamble when you wake up, ok?

P.S. It's not all about me anymore. Can't be so selfish. Can't be so immersed.

P.S.S Reminder to myself. Please don't give that freaking grin and don't watch too much SNSD and Hyori. Wouldn't want to have just a virtual girlfriend. lol

Eye contact..

finally got my phone! its preloaded with 1000 songs in it! all in english though. sad.

the IAF tutorial sure was hard - spent an hour plus doing the tutorial, and its not even halfway through. and its just 3 questions! *rolls eyes* dumb shit.

at least my part for GBE is done for now. tomorrow i can focus on thinking up survey questions, and sign up for the blood donation drive. Its not as much as for karma but for an obligation to go for the activity. why not? anyways i was afraid of being alone therefore i never really applied, but with Junhao and Seto who are so "on", I'm not that afraid anymore. Let's do our part for society!

I'm getting too sensitive to things. must be the after effect of having too much time on my hands.

alright time for some rants. now I know another thing I hate. People not giving eye contact when talking to them. maybe I'm just too sensitive. shit.

P.S BD lecturer said don't do unto other what you don't want others to do unto you. I agree. Not for the karma bits la. but its at least polite that way, best not to hurt others or their feelings even if you wanna do bad things. somehow I feel as if I've becomed a oyaji for speaking here. LOL

waiting is hard..

ARGHH! how much longer till the guy calls me to collect the phone?? waiting sure sucks.

On a graver note, my grandmother went to hospital yesterday. Hope she will get better. =/ *prays*

with age comes experience, and i'm not that immature anymore

Spent the best part of last week struggling against my doubts and fears. my mind was in turmoil while i gave some serious thought to what i was doing with my life. And partly it was because of her that made me feel so insecure and fill with excitement, anxiousness. In some ways it was like going to a battle - in that the feeling you get before you enter the battlefield, not that I've been to a battle before. Frankly I both love and hate her so much that it hurts. It was just a figure of speech though. There were times when I felt that I made the wrong decision. And I regretted it. But it was done though, what could I do?

As people generally know me, I'm a person who will keep thinking back to how I could make things better. So there's types of mistakes that really gets into my head which I then push to the back of my head with, only for them to come back with a vengence when I was reminded of it or when I was alone. Of course, there are also matters that makes me smile stupidly. A very satisfying chat with her would make happy for weeks. But as things go, the only thing people remember often or the longest would still be their mistakes.

They say that life is made up of 98% suffering and hardships and 2% happiness. But life must still go on, and that is also part of the reason why when you achieve happiness you always feel so so so sweet. Seeing a post on friends and friendship also made me think. How many friends could I actually rely on? Right now I can only think of a few but it doesn't matter. It hurts, and for my friends I can rely on, U may not be able to contact them or anything, but at least I know that I will be able to depend on them when the time comes, right?

Talking about this topic, I guess everyone knows that they will not be able to make lots of lasting friendships during their school period, but they try, and gets rewarded for trying. At least they won't be lonely at school. There are also these types of close friendships that will disappear once people graduate from school. Its a pity actually. Well, I guess I'll just go with the flow.

People learn from their mistakes, that's a given, in order not to make the same mistakes again. Once they mastered it, they mature a little bit in the process. This I call the "Human Process of Learning". Its interesting really. People avoid mistakes so as not to experience failures, but the real thing I think they're afraid of is actually the feeling of failure. No one likes that, but its unavoidable, or else how do people actually learn? My idea of the feeling of failure is a kind of sinking feeling that makes you very uncomfortable, maybe like the feeling of getting caught/failing in exams/shi lian? Yet another one of life's mysteries.

For me myself, I have the balls to fail in almost everything but my parent's expectations of myself. That's why I always study and play hard like there's no tomorrow. No wonder I always failed in other non related areas. I know that I'm not a good judge of character, but i can be counted on to help my friends when in trouble. I'm the kind of person to be fiercely loyal to my friends. It cuts both ways though. At least I don't have to worry about food and stuff. Right.

One thing I can be sure of is that I will be better off than what I'm now a few years down the road. That said, I really admire those people who have a clear goal of what they want to do the year after, or even ten years down the road. I, for now only just decided that I'm going to get into a University after National Service. The rest is still very vague. Guess I'm a "Cross that bridge when we get to it" kind of person.

P.S. This was written like 2 weeks ago, when I was feeling down and particularly inspirational. lol. anyways if you get to this point, thanks for reading my super long and boring post. Guess I'll do a part 2 if I feel like it, or feel down. At least I don't have readership problems to worry about, as the saying goes, "the fewer the people to have seen or heard of it, the better" =)

P.S.S Oh ya. I wasn't intending to post about it, but since I typed it into my phone, and I getting traded-in tomorrow, might as well la. haha

UWAHHHH

seems like blogging spree is ending, and not a moment too soon. I predict that I will be too busy to blog from next week onwards. Not counting the tutorials that I haven't start doing, I currently have a GBE presentation on 19/5, and the GBE report to pass up on 18/5. Not to mention that our group haven't really started doing it yet.

Next, I have Business Development to do. Due to be presented on week 6 or 7, we just touched on macro environment, not to mention that we have to do a survey for at least 100 to 200 people. And the report is to be handed up on 8/6.

One, no two words. Severely out-of-time

anyways, yesterday went to eat out with my family at Sembawang Shopping Center. that was frankly the first time I've been there since it was renovated and i was pleasantly surprised that its becoming better and better.

We went to Astons and I had a Prime Sirloin (Medium) there. It tastes nice, and I really am full after eating that dinner. The Mashed Potato my brother had looks veryyy good and the French Fries was nice.

After that me and my father went to the Singtel Exclusive Retailer shop to see if I can change my phone or not. The guy there said I need to wait till today to change. Imagine how disappointed I was, considering that this is the first time i get to choose my phone and trade-in and so on.

So today I went, and the guy said the W705 is out of stock. MANNNN.. Hope the guy keeps his promise and deliver the phone to me by tomorrow, and don't need to get my father to come down again just for his IC and signature. Else I think I'll probably say WTF is this service and storm out. lol.

better go watch my shows and start planning what to do for my projects, else I'll never forgive myself. It's not that I don't trust my groupmates or anything, but more of a responsibility type of question.

nervousness abounds thinking minds. I'm thinking too much, really.

just did a quiz, and felt obliged to share it around.

seems i prefer quality time/physical touch

I feel loved when...

The Five Love Languages

My Primary Love Languages are probably Quality Time and Physical Touch

My Detailed Results:
Quality Time:	9
Physical Touch:	9
Acts of Service:	6
Words of Affirmation:	4
Receiving Gifts:	2

About this quiz

Unhappiness in relationships is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. It can be helpful to know what language you speak and what language those around you speak.

Tag 3 people so they can find out what their love language is.

Take the Quiz!
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I just don't know you that well..

today's gym day. went training for a bit, but frankly the atmosphere at the SP guildhouse better, if only it didn't cost that much to use the facilities there. These past week i kept bumping into old friends, and it makes me happy, since it's always the best to meet everyone you know everywhere.

this reminds me of during BD class when we thought up of a party organiser thingy. and imagine everyone telling "Happy Birthday, (Insert Name)" to you. I will be damn stunned and pleased and surprised and happy at the same time la. hahaha.

Went to Bugis street to buy a slingbag. think i need one as different occasions calls for different items to bring. anyways experienced mild post purchase cognitive dissonance but nvr paid heed to it. went to buy a shirt, polo and pants for myself and got nagged by my mum that i have too much clothes. I feel otherwise though, since i feel i wear the same clothes everyweek to school =/

right. today's lecture is quite relaxing ba. if you can minus away the tiredness that arises from lack of sleep. seriously i needs to sleep for 10 hours for one day, just to get a feel of what life during the holidays was.

P.S. Can't believe I nvr heard of Lee Hyori. Her smile is dazzling.. How about a smile for me, please? =D

Everything takes time. just hope i have the patience and that little something.

the clear blue sky

I'll daydream if everyday's like this, so please don't give me false hope..

slept for 6 hours last night. freaking tiring was the day.

at least today's gems was fast, and ended at around 930. the only regret was.. this i would keep to myself. during IAF class, i was the only (ignorant) one taking a temperature check, since i don't know that it was canceled. got laughed at but i don't mind, since taking a temperature check wasn't that bad anyways. At least it did helped me to escape some questionings from Mr Ben. haha.

during break i folded some stars with strips of shiny paper that i got from joy and bianca. the one useful thing i learnt was that huiwen and joy don't like people (guys) to give them stars since it was so stupid, and bianca was ok with it so long its someone her type. lol. my first time folding stars and i folded 6 in an hour! yea that pretty much sucks but at least i know how to fold now. *beams*

now waiting for some chance to learn how to fold hearts, and get to know people better in the process =)

BD group is moving sloooowly. at least we about finished our business description, and now we will be starting on macro environmental forces. hope can finish phase one by end of week 5. it isn't very reassuring that projects are now starting to pile up. will start on brain drain phenomena once i get my brains back.

P.S. been lazy lately and quite forgot to do my exercise at home. will try to get back into rhythm.

just let me.. *forgets line

woah!

obviously, to continue to pump up my blogging spree credentials, i managed to blog 4 days in a row! *gasps

went to K with huiwen, kaming, samantha and jerry today.. was rather fun and blew my throat off now. damn. never knew that samantha was that crazy. lol. at some point we just said that she was suffering from ADD or Attention deficit disorder, and that just got her cracking up more. she's tough man. real tough.

kaming, huiwen said that he was out of tune but ya he just kept going, while denying everything. haha. this makes it all the funnier and better to sing with. jerry was in his usual SJT voice and a couple english songs really cracked me up. Huiwen was almost as crazy as Samantha and, i think no one was sane enough during K-ing la, in all those times i've been. that's a good thing though!

P.S. went surfing the net and found a 10 girl korean band. yes they're good looking and almost the same age as me, but 10 girls? not surprisingly they became quite popular. I, for one would not mind one as my girlfriend. =)

check them out here:

bad bad bad tuesday

i wonder what's wrong with me. blogging like 3 days(?) in a row?

anyways, today i got back money for the ITP trip. $150++ in total. yet i lost something too. my water bottle! *saddens. my water bottle is at least dependable, since it don't leak too much, and yeah. i lost it. mannnn..

going for K tmr with some pals from the OITP and also huiwen. ryan pangseh-ed us sia. lol

P.S sorry mr lee for saying you're an idiot that loud. guess it's just a spur of the moment thing. pls dun make my life difficult. yea i regretted it the moment the words came out. sorry. peace.

mon mon monday

uwah today's finally monday. I always get the feeling that i wanna go to school on the weekends, but that doesn't mean that i would like going to school when the time comes. haha.

somehow i get the feelings that i wanna see how my friends in schools are doing, and then the urge to see that someone also makes it all the more compelling for me to go to school. what a retarded guy i am. haha. many was the time that made my class go *thump thump when i go to my class.
ok i'll stop that now. haha

anyways, tomorrow's the temperature taking day. fun huh?
we need to scan our admin card when we go to school from tomorrow onwards too. must be because they want to find out who's in school to quarantine us IF an outbreak occurs =O
I don't care so long as they don't take up too much of my time la. time is precious you know?

the library also needs to scan our cards when we enter. must be same reason as above.

P.S the "Will you survive the swine flu?" quiz I took at Facebook does not bode well. Says that I will die through none of my fault. Is this fair? hope it wont happen in real life though =/

Review and Response

here's the review i said i would find =)

"It’s been far too long, Round Table.

I’ve said it once, and I’ll say it again: Round Table never fails to capture my mood in the best way possible. Every album they put out (all three of them, to be fair) exhibits full control over the music, and the sophistication is in another league. However, I was just a bit concerned when I saw the release notice for Distance, because there’s a whopping five singles/b-sides on the album. Given that the album’s total length is really only twelve songs (ignoring the useless intro and outro songs), that’s not a lot of wiggle room for original content. And while this is nothing new for Round Table, I can’t help but feel like each album is a bit of a risk, because there’s not too much room for error, given the small amount of content they’re working with. Nevertheless, they haven’t messed up majorly in any of their albums so far, so I’m not exactly about to reprimand them prematurely, especially considering how solid this album actually ends up being.

Skipping the singles, one of which I’ve already given an analysis of here, the first track Sayonara is really worth noting, because it’s perfect Round Table. Every album they manage to produce one song that completely steals the show, and surprisingly enough it’s never a single. April had Beautiful, which was a b-side, and Nino had Message, which as far as I can remember was also a b-side. Sayonara is an original track produced for the album, and it really manages to shine. Round Table tends to do best when given an upbeat tune and lots of layering in the music, and all of that presents itself wonderfully in Sayonara, along with a bit of catchiness in the vocals, especially during the chorus.

The sixth track, Toki wo Koete, is also a fairly interesting one. I really didn’t like it too much at first, and it never really seemed to stick in my mind overall. However, after listening to it several times, it’s really started to grow on me, and now it actually ranks fairly highly on my mental list of Round Table songs. The song’s very smooth, and is actually a pseudo-duet between Katsutoshi Kitagawa (who used to do the vocals for Round Table before Nino came along) - think Uinona. It’s an interesting song, very laid back and, at least for me, it really grows better over time with repeated listening.

Finally, I’d like to mention Takaramono. Ah, Takaramono. I remember when it came out on the Koi wo Shiteru single (in a ‘homemade demo’ version), I absolutely abhorred it. It was easily what caused the Koi wo Shiteru single to lose serious points in my book, and the song felt, in an uncharacteristic move on Round Table’s part, very sloppy. But things have definitely changed, and for the better. It sounds remarkably similar to the track that precedes it, Yokogao (which I expected to be amazing having heard it before as the insert song for Aria the Origination), and has actually become my favorite track on the album. While I’d have to give the nod to Sayonara in terms of overall quality, I feel that given how terrible the demo version on the single was, as well as the level of sophistication and catchiness in the song, I can’t help but love this song and come back to it over and over. A beautiful piano track plays in the background and accompanies the delicate rhythm section, and the composition allows for an extremely complex and rich song, that just exudes quality. Very well played, Round Table.

I could go on and on about how much I love this album, but there’s really only one way to vindicate my obsession with this band: check them out for yourself. You’ll either love them or hate them, as I’ve found very few people that have found them only so-so. If you hate them, all you have to lose is a few minutes, and if you love them, you’ll be able to understand exactly why I love this band so very very much. So check them out, post impressions, and see if you can find what I’ve found in all of their awesome songs."

right man. so now's my review, or synopsis, or whatever.

right now, my personal favourites are sayonara, koi wo shiteru, ahh everysongs la. the songs are really very refreshing, and it mixes genres together. like jazz and pop and whatever. from a mishmash of things u think that its a futile attempt. but its good. like real good.

the time when i was introduced to this band was after watching Welcome to the NHK, a very interesting anime that is my cult favourite. ok. time passes very quickly when u listen to their music, and its really very entertaining. I still haven't lost interest in the album after i've listened to it for a week plus. that's the best part.

" Round Table tends to do best when given an upbeat tune and lots of layering in the music, and all of that presents itself wonderfully in Sayonara, along with a bit of catchiness in the vocals, especially during the chorus."

yep. this is really true of the band. the reason why the album keeps a hold of me is due to the fact that there's something new to listen to in everytime. real good.

"it really grows better over time with repeated listening."

this senctence really hold true for me. i would'nt be listening to this over and over and before i sleep (yes, i do listen to songs before i sleep) if this is not true.

do give the album a try. You’ll either love them or hate them, as I’ve found very few people that have found them only so-so. If you hate them, all you have to lose is a few minutes, and if you love them, you’ll be able to understand exactly why I love this band so very very much. So check them out, post impressions, and see if you can find what I’ve found in all of their awesome songs. => my views

one very important thing.

EDIT: Review taken from "http://unchained.nu/logomania/?p=41"

Good day =)

today's a nice day to take a nap =)

nice album by the way. I'm gna copy paste someone's review abt this someday..

sayonara



Koi Wo Shiteru

freaking lame vids

stumbled upon some super lame vids on youtube.. this guy's a pretty good comedian ya =)





his earlier and even more retarded vid..

gah!

ok. i figured that i shud at least blog once in a while. :D

anyways, this week has been quite slack, but there's always homework to be done.

there's either 2 or 3 pieces la. can't remember exactly.. haha

started on my "workout" schedule alr.. not too bad la, considering I'm only currently working on my abs. kinda wish i have a 4 pack la, huh..

tmr having wedding dinner. still haven't decided on whether i'm going or not, due to seating constraint. kinda sucks but i'm fine with it, either way.

BD's been, erm.. kinda okay ba.. hope we will begin to move once dbf ppl comes..

i have a nagging feeling that this sem i will not be able to do as well.. let's hope that i'm wrong..

no need to sound emo-ish here, but i kinda feel secretly pleased when being commented, positively =)

ah ya, today's lecture is so lame.. 9+ finished le.. tmd time spent travelling more than studying.. and today not even study la.. just some lameo intro.. crapped my way thru the lesson. went for breakfast with the guys afterwards, at bugis mcdonald's. honestly, i wished that i had bought a sausage mcmuffin or big breakfast rather than the mcgriddles. the bread is insanely sweet la. -_-

sweet stuff for breakfast, and worst of all, on the bread/hotcake? no thanks.

tadaima.

okok i'm back.. been back since 13/4 but was tooooo lazy to update my blog.. anyways spent these few days doing what not and finally could catch up on my shows i've been missing.

surprising that i'm still familiar with singapore xD

the air in singapore is cleaner, sky is blue.. alot better than the grey skies of shanghai.. xD

no spitting and no dangerous traffic..

no pushing and shoving when taking the mrt.. waha this is SINGAPORE!

anyways, maybe updating with fotos later ba..

on a side note, toradora is a nice show..

photos =)

well here's some of the zoo photos =)



















Zoo entrance =) alot of people arh!




















These birds kinda look like AoBai in those stephen chow movies, with its white "mustache" and all =)




















The Dino-Bird that ryan mentioned. LOL
Here's the main attraction!
















This panda looks so sleepy.. *yawns*



















































Lying down to eat?!?!?!





















Looks like its digging its nose.. LOL XD















The goat or whatever on the right is chewing on the tail of the other?

zoo zoo zoo zoo?

went to shanghai zoo today! =)

ok.. the pics are not with me so i can't post up pics of the animals.. anyways, just imagine for the time being la, or u can go ryan's or jh's blog lo..

anyways, the zoo is a good place to relax if you have time to go to.. and the pandas were cute, yet fat, lazy and lazy.. its like laziness reincarnate lol!

the only thing i hate about the zoo is the petting zoo la.. the dogs being kept/trapped there are so pitiful.. and i thought dogs need companionship? how the zoo have time to interact with them altogether is a wonder..

will be putting up photos, if i have time and the photos =)

I can't take my eyes off of you..

today's monday.. so sian sia..

i can't get my mind off of her more like. lol..

anyways weekends went for the nanjing trip.. its nothing special really. and imagine paying the same amt of money and getting a room without a bath tub! not that i use the bathtub really xD

dreamt quite nice a dream ytd really.. =)
imagine asking a girl out while doing it proposal style.. and she accepted the flower! lol

coughing my lungs out these days.. hope that its nothing serious la.. if its TB, I'm dead..

wearing black tee today lor.. so no blue tee jokes for you all =P

man i really need to get my head back into the game..

rants

i'm writing this under the assumption that no one now visits this blog..

seriously, if you wanna make friends then don't keep pissing people off.. so what if you are more popular, or rich, or more nicely built? if you want people to entertain you please fuck off..

fucking pissed..

anyways today's trip to the disc kart was the best ever, except for some fucker who kept banging me.. seriously, if i glare at you and you stop doing that, you might as well fuck off for people's sake..

and the go kart was the one thing that i didn't grumble about for JE's recommendation..

tmr's going to nanjing.. hope can go visit the onsen there.. never been there before ma.. xD

next week's gonna be a hell of a week.. 3 presentations to go..
middle finger to wadever's pissing me off! oOo

you don't need to remind me of anything.

I know I'm pretty lazy in updating.. its not that china is boring or anything.. just that i can't seem to find priority or have the urge to blog. sorry man but obviously my real life/work/play/manga/anime is more important than blogging for me =P

ok I'm just lazy.

anyways went to wuxi/hangzhou over the weekend.. not a very good week, but the food and beer over there is nice xD

lets just hope that the saying "塞翁失马焉知非福" goes ba..

on the trip back to shanghai, i was DJ for the day! randomness FTW

EDIT: 江南 really does make one feel emo. especially when you are in china's 江南 area listening. somehow it makes my fren feel like jumping into the river. lol.

shit its cold!

yes, i'm finally in china le.. its damn cold here, and it makes me miss the "warmth" of singapore.. lol

anyways took the SQ flight, food in there was nice, and so far so gd ;)

hotel up till now is good. lol.. 5star ma.. what do you expect sia.. xD but the hotel we're staying in is more like a love hotel sia.. tmd.. anyways, its comfy indoors la.. then v gd le.. lol

went to a couple of places, update once i get the pics lol.

eagerly anticipating. waiting.

hate to remind myself of this, but tmr's flight would be my first time taking an airplane. first time leh!

anyways my flight tmr will be:

SQ830
Singapore - Shanghai
Departure: 1005
Arrival: 1515

Flight back home will be at 13/4/09
SQ833
Shanghai - Singapore
Departure: 1635
Arrival: 2150

even though I'm going there for ITP, the first week will be tours and seminars, 2-6 week is the crux, you can say that..

will be staying at Motel 168 at shanghai in the 2nd week, and will be going to work at Acorn Marketing Research.. hope its fun there.. but i really don't like the idea of bringing a laptop to work. cant the company just sponsor me a company laptop? XP

anyways hope the Xperience there will be memorable, and i can actually get to learn something. if not, just enjoy my time there lo.

heard that the temperature is at 5 degrees.. better than Sarah's place hahaha.. ok better finish up my letter of intro and send it for printing..

ahahaha..

ok tmr's the final test of my SP year 2 life, provided i never actually flunk any subjects..

studying for consumer behaviour is a blast, but as i scrolled through the past year papers, i realised that i've only been memorizing the main point, and apart from some shoddy things, i don't really know how to define the terms and so on..

but what the heck, tmr's the last paper and i'm gonna do my best, like i did for the previous papers and aim for another honour roll =P

anyways, Bon Voyage Sarah for ur next semester in China

study study..

lol a random post at 1159pm.. anyways tmr's the blaw paper and i kinda feel up for it.. good news, that is.. haha.. somehow i feel the electronic gadgets are gonna take over my life, and i dun feel too happy about that.

expect to see me online lesser and lesser.

got a couple more things i'd like to show you, but since its late and i need my sleep, let's save it for later alright? ;)

it sure is boring

so while other people are busy mugging with other peeps at school or elsewhere, lonely me is stuck at home.. lol

anyways this past week nvr had the motivation to blog, and since i'm here now, better quickly summarize the past week..

6 Feb was the best la lol.. during that time i managed to become the "flasher" and then me and some other guy got labeled as brothers cos i wore abt the same clothes as his.. -_- i dun mind a girl couple with me though.. ;)

friday was a goood day.. presented CB and was ok with it.. weirdest was that Mrs Tang nvr asked any qns for our grp.. at least after clarification she said that she understood everything so no need ask us questions.. man i was relieved sia.. lol

then after tt went for those networking sessions tht the school hosted for us.. at least there's free dinner and the talks were nice.. and man did we network! we networked among our own classmates leh.. at least thats the one time where the 11 of us went for supper at Tiong Bahru.. at first Joy dun wanna go there cos she scared cannot buy her ingredient.. but in the end we got wad we wanted la. At Tiong Bahru de LJS we just crapped thru lo.. sat there until 10+ and then we went home le..

okok during the train home, Ada slept till she lay on other ppl's de shoulder sia.. so funny and hairul went call her phone to wake her up.. lucky not sitting beside her or else dam paiseh lol..

okok i gna go back "study" le.. or else no honour roll or me this sem.. T_T

busy busy busy

whew.. these few weeks was busy busy BUSY..

i spent new year sleeping late at 3am xD fun sia

anyways the projects were killing me.. HRM and PSCM were thankfully still in the desired region, so that's alright.. now on toward CB and BLAW..

wish me luck for SOHOCN test on wed. I'll need it